Sassy Girl

Empty Dreams!

2011-06-27T22:57:00.005+05:30

I play loud music
I read my favorite book
By the window seat I sit
To forget the pain, I just stare out

How am I suppose to feel
when I see you sitting next to her
Laughing at her silly jokes
Trying to impress her

How can I put a smile on my face
When I can't hold back my tears
How can I pretend everything is okay
When I am falling apart

How can I feel good
When the pain doesn't go away
When these scars and wounds
Reminds me of the LOVE I never had

How can I ever be myself again
When I no longer remember who I was
I'm just a wretched soul
with a broken heart and Empty Dreams

Another sad song!

2011-06-12T21:51:00.005+05:30

Every time I try to pen down my feelings, I get confused. No matter how hard I try no words comes out. I feel numb. I feel my mind is blank. I know my emotional level. It's always Hyper! But I still wonder Why do I struggle to write then!?! Why does my mind goes blank. Why do I feel numb. Why can't I feel anything!

I am left with nothing but a broken-heart and memories. I am empty inside. I feel nothing anymore. I feel no happiness, I feel no pain either. I have been hurt like never before. I have been in pain for such a long time now, I no longer know the difference between happiness and misery.

The suffering has wrecked my soul beyond repairs. And I know every single day I am slowly dying inside. But I can't help but think about my soul-wrecker. He never told me "He Loved Me". But I fantasized about him. I wanted him to Love me madly. I had a dream. I had Hope.

I can't, I just can't look at him. I look away because I'm not Okay. I only wish he knew how much I loved him! Every special occasion I think of him. In fact there ain't no time that i don't think about him. Now it's too late. It's too late to let go! I know it will destroy me. But do I have a choice!?! They say as if i could be saved. But I am already a wrecked. What good would it do if I let go now!

Now all I am left with is shattered dreams and a broken-heart! May be my life is just another sad song!

The letter I will never send!

2011-06-04T02:43:00.006+05:30

Dear Stranger,

I am writing this letter to you, because i will never have the guts to tell you how i feel about you.Do you remember 14Th Feb 2011!? Of course I don't expect you to. But I remember that evening. I did the impossible that day. I never thought i would have so much courage to go up to you and talk.But it happened. It just happened. And darling you should know that it was not easy for me. I mustered the courage to sit beside you. I still remember how i felt. My heart skipped a beat.I was fighting back the urge to kiss you.

A very strange feeling occupied my heart. A happy feeling. But you were listening to songs and not bothered even talk to me. That act of yours was a little disheartening. I just ignored it. As we both sat so close to each other, there was a hurricane in my heart. When we started talking, i just couldn't concentrate. Your charm had done some sort of magic on me. Your smile captivated me. I loved your voice, the way you laugh, everything about you was enchanting.

I was studying your face, as we talked.Your beard and mustache were giving me such a heart ache. Honestly, i was itching to touch your beard. I just couldn't take my eyes off you. I wondered as i gazed at you. Those beautiful sparkly eyes had set my heart on fire. And you had no idea about these swirling emotions i was going through. It was so casual for you, but it was very special for me. Iwill never forget the way you made me feel that evening. I secretly wished, you would fall in love with me.

For some strange reason I had convinced myself, I'm not a kind of girl boys would fall in love with.A pair of jeans, tee and canvas shoes is what defines me. Nothing less than a Gothic princess. but still I want you to feel the same way for me, as I feel for you. It sounds impossible though. I envy every girl who has ever got a chance to hug you, be with you. And i make the same wish everyday, I want to be that Girl, you will fall crazily in Love with.

Every time i get to see your face, my face gleams with happiness. Every morning when you have breakfast with the bunch of bunch of beautiful girls, I sit in a corner and sneakily glance at you. I hate to see you surrounded by all those girls. My poor heart would not let go of you. Now it's too late. I have insanely fallen in love with you. I am blinded in your love. I started assuming many crazy things like, you have a thing for me. I assumed your smiley-status messages on Facebook was for me. I fooled my heart. It was clearly visible you are madly in love with the pretty Bengali girl. I could hear my heart shatter. I deleted you from Facebook, i hate to admit it, I facebook-stalk you almost everyday. hoping for a sign that you love me too. But do fantasies ever come true!?

I highly doubt that. And now it hurts like hell to see your face, knowing that you will never love me back. I try to escape from the reality. I put on my music loud and try to ignore you. But how can I. It's seems like impossible to me. You and the other girl talk in shuttle, laugh out loud, it just makes matter worse for me.I tell myself I should have been in her place, talking and laughing with you. I tell myself you and I are a perfect match. Dear god, i tell myself lot of silly things. I knew i would end up heart broken by a guy i have never dated. It's a tragedy! But you can't break a broken heart. Can you?

I know you have no idea about all this shit am going through right now. I wish, I wish you could read my mind. I wish.....

Love Forever,
BrokenHeart

Happy feet!

2011-05-23T11:35:00.008+05:30

It was my first day at Hip Hop Dance India studio. I was dressed up right for the evening, a loose tee, cotton track pants and dancing shoes. There were mirrors on all four walls of the tiny room that could hold a maximum of 15 students for the routine. The ambiance made me feel that i belonged to the coolest dance crew in town. Loud hip hop music was playing in one corner. Our dance captain Sri stood in front facing the mirror and started with the basic warm-up . The funky beats had already got me in the mood for dancing, but i didn't know that there was something called "warm-ups" before the dance.

I enjoyed the warm-up session. Initially the stretching and bending seemed easy, so did touching the tow without bending the knees,, neck exercise and many more. But after a while i could not feel my arms. They were hanging in the air. the push-ups were torturous. I felt my spinal cord might have damaged. I was sweating like a pig and was gasping for air. After the warm-up session, which lasted nearly for twenty minutes, my body stopped responding. It felt like my bones had been crashed by a hammer. My legs were completely lifeless - like i had just come out of a roller coaster ride. After the warm-up sessions Sri started with some basic hip-hop styles and moves. With much difficulty I managed to move my legs.

Sri wrapped up after a few minutes of practice. I was totally unaware of the nightmare i was to go through that night. When i looked at myself in the mirror, the sight was not at all pleasant. Dance was supposed to be elegant, pleasant and beautiful. But i was sweaty and horrendous. I was torn and discouraged. The thought of giving up also crossed my mind. No great quotes I had read came to my rescue at such times of struggle.

After the class I had only one desire left in my heart - to sleep like a baby. Suddenly my bed seemed like the coziest place on this planet. Something terrible was awaiting me. before curling up in my blanket, i said my prayers, most of which included about my body pain, how a miracle would be a great blessing, followed by a faint Amen. My body was groaning. What happened next was a blur as i fell asleep.

The morning was most painful. My mind was still in surreal state. But as i put my feet on the ground I was wide awake with my body and mind in sync. neither the chirping birds not the glowing sun cheered me up. Nothing at all was soothing. But as I started walking I felt the pain's gone. Only when i tried to climb the stairs, I realized what had happened to my body. I asked Sri if it's normal to feel such terrible pain. I was happy to hear the affirmative. Even though I was limping for the next couple of days, I continued to attend classes. A few days later after experiencing the nerve-wracking pain, I was alright.

After a month passed I got used to warm-up sessions but felt i was not learning much. Watching the dance movies religiously, I was eager to do some breath taking moves - especially the b boying and flooring move, where one stands on the hands, spins his head on the ground at such ease. I even tried some moves, but thankfully didn't hurt myself. I decided to learn it from Sri rather than trying it myself.

The dance moves that i watched in movies looked easy. I used to think that given a chance I could dance like that. But, first day warm-up had brought me back to senses. Hollywood actor Keanu Reevs once said that "Basically it starts with four months of training, just basic stretching, kicking and punching. Then you come to the choreography and getting ready to put the dance together". Now I know what exactly Keanu was talking about. I ams till in the phase of warm-ups and stretching.

Nevertheless dance is a true inspiration to me. I have millions of reasons why I love dancing. A dancer is elegant, graceful and full of energy.Endless enthusiasm,dedication and discipline are what make a great dancer. An important ingredient that separates a great dancer from a good dancer is "Passion". On stage when the limelight falls, it feels like stepping on a heavenly stairs. the entire audience watches as the dancer accumulates as much energy as he can to put on a great show. When the music plays, the pain, the fear, jealousy and the hatred all are forgotten.

On stage it's just the dancer and the music. The soul, the body, and the mind are in sync to create some magic on stage leaving the spectators spellbound. The dancers capture the heart of the people. Every dancer waits for that one moment, one chance and one stage where he can dance like it's his last dance. The road to that stage isn't that easy. Rejections in auditions are heart breaking. The bumps on the road urge me to give up my hope and dream of dancing. But then dancers come to my rescue.

Dancers have always inspired me. Some legends have left behind their signature dance moves behind as their legacy. The famous eternal "moonwalk" is my all time Favorite. I just cannot forget the magic it created. I have plenty of reasons why people should dance. But I see no reason why they shouldn't ! So put on your dancing shoes, honey, we are gonna do a little bit of popping and locking, little bit of hip and hop. And don't tell me you have two left feet, they are actually a pair of happy feet!

I Will Be Your Moon

2011-02-22T15:15:00.003+05:30

I love the way you smile

I love the way it reaches your eye

The ecstasy of it, takes me high

let's escape this world

And like love birds, let's fly

I love it when you hold my hand

You couldn't see, I melted inside

I thought my heart would explode

I love this pain,

Everytime i see you, Boy i fall for you so hard

I love the way you sneakily glance at me

It's when i go weak in my knees

Talkin' to you in my mind is so easy

But when i see you,

I fight the butterflies, I can't even say 'Hi'

I love to lay beside you under the stars

those silent moments, those unsaid words,

First summer rain, first kiss

Madness of first love is like a fresh breeze

Those moments, i wish i could freeze

I love those mushy songs and movies

Which magically fits you and me in the stories

In my heart I know, our love will outlive us

When the sun goes down, I promise

I will be your moon in your darkest time!

~ VaSuDhA

Struggle

2011-01-08T00:53:00.003+05:30

I try to write a song
for my lost love
the fake promise of
first kiss and first love!

The empty page lies
And I search for the word
Deep down in my heart
But I failed, failed again

It's the lonely moon
The stars above the clouds
Longing for love, the lazy ocean too
Fighting for love, I'm yet another fool

I kiss goodbye to my dreams, my love
Your memories, will always live
About you and me, I struggle to write
But, maybe there is no song in my heart!

2010 was such a goddamn Drama Queen! 2011!?

2010-12-30T13:14:00.007+05:30

As the year 2010 comes to an end I suddenly realize that I need to make my 2011 resolution!

Some days I was blue. Some days it was too cold. And those days when it rained cats and dogs. Days I laughed so hard I peed a little. I laughed till I cried. Some days I cried inconsolably. Some days I was spiritual, other days I partied like a rock star. Many occasions I danced on the dance floor. I fell madly in love with him. I melted each time he gazed at me. I was breathless when he sat beside me. Some days I danced till my bones were sore. I finally wore that party dress and the sexy stilettos. I straightened my hair. I shopped a lot.

I craved for more and more love and adventure. I struggled to write. Some nights were lonely and miserable. Some nights I fantasized about him. Some nights my mind was numb no words could describe it. I waited for a shooting star. I tried counting stars. I was lost in the crowd. I found myself again staring in the empty space. Often I stared out of the window and wished for small pleasures. There were happy days. There were hopelessly miserable days. The year is gone but has left its fragrance around for the coming New Year! I treasure each and every moment of this year.

The coming year I am sure is gonna be much more exciting one. I am gonna dance more. I am gonna make each day a happy one. I will be regular to church. Bright colors. There’s gonna be pink shades of course. Fresh funky fashion. Gonna freak out more with my friends. One strict resolution is to read plenty of books and polish my writing (I like it) I will learn to play a musical instrument. Drums, violin/guitar. Gonna be more funky, crazy and wild (super like it).

I will never ever let my confidence let down. I will find a way out of any obstacle in life. I will talk and think positive. I will declare each day happiness, prosperity, love, peace. No bugger can break me down. Even if I come across thorns I will always remember the rose. Some days I might feel blue. But a butterfly will always reminds me that after all my life isn’t a black and white movie.

Of course there might be days when I will be fragile. Days when I will cry for no reason. There will be sun, rain, moon and stars till the end. Season of wilderness shall pass. Goodness and prosperity shall welcome me and embrace me. Amidst this I will walk with my chin up. Good or bad I will enjoy each day.

I wanna fall in love with myself all over again <3

Only as high as I reach I can grow, Only as far as I seek I can go, Only as deep as I look I can see, Only as much as I dream I can be ~ Karen

2010!

2010-12-16T12:20:00.002+05:30

2010!

Ø I've been Extremely lazy this year

Ø Hip hop dance class was fresh breeze in my life

Ø Read few books

Ø No life changing incident

Ø Missed lot of Sunday prayer services

Ø Some crazy adventurous treks

Ø Awesome trip to North India

Ø Put on weight, lost weight

Ø Got home sick several times

Ø Felt blue, pink, and all other colors

Ø Fought with friends

Ø Many strategies, few executed

Ø Fell in love

Ø Broke my heart

Ø Didn't write much

Ø Have been too messy, clumsy

Ø Cried sometimes but laughed millions of times

Ø Few close friends moved out of my life

Ø No savings

Ø Few parties, few dances

Ø No bad habits

Ø Watched lots and lots of movies, serials

Ø Crush on lot of boys

Ø No tattoo

Ø God’s favorite kid yet another year J

Girl Interrupted!

2010-12-15T08:53:00.003+05:30

Have you ever confused a dream with life?

Or stolen something when you have the cash?

Have you ever been blue?

Or thought your train moving while sitting still?

Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's.

Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.

~ Susanna

Journey

2010-11-06T21:22:00.005+05:30

Even though the same road is traveled

when you are going home and

when you are going away from home,

some how for the latter part

It's always a tough journey

Stupid Cupid!

2010-11-05T01:25:00.007+05:30

The time when you see he is online and that brings such sweet smile on your face is the best feeling one could ever feel in life. The problem starts when you are dying inside to talk to him. May be ping him n say hi. But Heck no, The heart and the mind starts arguing about the one boy you love to death. Finally the conclusion is always "Let him ping you girl" . Believe me i don't hate anything more than this silly conclusions., which sometimes makes a little sense and also saves you from the embarrassment. The first thought that came to my mind when i saw him online was, oh forget it. There was no thought, there was only thumping heart. Just his name in the chat list with green bubble would mean so much!? Well, yea that happens in love.. FYI

The initial feeling of butterflies in the tummy, fast heart beats and the romantic songs at the back of my mind and twisted fantasies, once the split second movie was over. I came back to reality. I clicked on his name and decided to say Hi. It's okay if he has a girlfriend. We can be still good friends. But then my stupid heart said, may be he is busy. may be he is chatting with his girl. Oh man! That thought was very heart breaking! Still i gathered my gut and opened the chat window just to find him offline!

I will not say Hi to him. Instead I will cut Cupid's wings.

They did not give up!

2010-10-13T10:21:00.002+05:30

As a young man, Abraham Lincoln went to war a captain and returned a private. Afterwards, he was a failure as a businessman. As a lawyer in Springfield, he was too impractical and temperamental to be a success. He turned to politics and was defeated in his first try for the legislature, again defeated in his first attempt to be nominated for congress, defeated in his application to be commissioner of the General Land Office, defeated in the senatorial election of 1854, defeated in his efforts for the vice-presidency in 1856, and defeated in the senatorial election of 1858. At about that time, he wrote in a letter to a friend, "I am now the most miserable man living. If what I feel were equally distributed to the whole human family, there would not be one cheerful face on the earth."

Winston Churchill failed sixth grade. He was subsequently defeated in every election for public office until he became Prime Minister at the age of 62. He later wrote, "Never give in, never give in, never, never, never, never - in nothing, great or small, large or petty - never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never, Never, Never, Never give up." (his capitals, mind you)
Socrates was called "an immoral corrupter of youth" and continued to corrupt even after a sentence of death was imposed on him. He drank the hemlock and died corrupting.
Sigmund Freud was booed from the podium when he first presented his ideas to the scientific community of Europe. He returned to his office and kept on writing.
Robert Sternberg received a C in his first college introductory-psychology class. His teacher commented that "there was a famous Sternberg in psychology and it was obvious there would not be another." Three years later Sternberg graduated with honors from Stanford University with exceptional distinction in psychology, summa cum laude, and Phi Beta Kappa. In 2002, he became President of the American Psychological Association.
Charles Darwin gave up a medical career and was told by his father, "You care for nothing but shooting, dogs and rat catching." In his autobiography, Darwin wrote, "I was considered by all my masters and my father, a very ordinary boy, rather below the common standard of intellect." Clearly, he evolved.
Thomas Edison's teachers said he was "too stupid to learn anything." He was fired from his first two jobs for being "non-productive." As an inventor, Edison made 1,000 unsuccessful attempts at inventing the light bulb. When a reporter asked, "How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?" Edison replied, "I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps."
Albert Einstein did not speak until he was 4-years-old and did not read until he was 7. His parents thought he was "sub-normal," and one of his teachers described him as "mentally slow, unsociable, and adrift forever in foolish dreams." He was expelled from school and was refused admittance to the Zurich Polytechnic School. He did eventually learn to speak and read. Even to do a little math.
Louis Pasteur was only a mediocre pupil in undergraduate studies and ranked 15th out of 22 students in chemistry.
Henry Ford failed and went broke five times before he succeeded.
R. H. Macy failed seven times before his store in New York City caught on.
F. W. Woolworth was not allowed to wait on customers when he worked in a dry goods store because, his boss said, "he didn't have enough sense."

mailbox message. Found it interesting and inspirational. :D

New me!

2010-10-03T11:18:00.004+05:30

After reading my own blog my heart is aching, not out of joy but 'cuz of the pain.It's the crappiest thing I've ever done in my life. Every post is so damn emotional. It could be renamed as "Emotional Atyachar part 2."My blog badly needs a huge make over.Not only the blog, even the writer needs a make over!

First things first!

> I want to stop being such a freakin EMO! And the blog needs to be light, humorous and inspiring.

> No matter what people say words can still change the world ~ DPS I want to drive inspiration from this beautiful quote!

> I don' know if falling in love is a waste of time or not, but i want to get over myself with all this crap called cupid, love and mooove on in life.

> I want to take writing seriously.

> Want to read books which are in my must-read-list. Which are inspirational and life changing.

> I want to be caring, polite and humble.

> I never want to doubt myself.

> I want to write a piece, a verse for the society.

> The list might go on and on but i would end this list as of now with the thought,

~ "Two roads diverged in the wood and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference."

He loves me not!

2010-06-13T21:10:00.007+05:30

Every morning i wake up to a new day with emptiness in my heart. I dress up and walk lost completely in my own thoughts.I sometimes don' understand myself a all. I know that i am running to reach something,I know i am searching for something. But i don' get it! I mean where i am heading to!? What i am searching for!?

Why does rain bring such bliss in my heart! Why do i yearn to behold the beauty of a butterfly.Why am i waiting for a miracle that would change my life!?? My mind is filled with questions. The quest has begun.But the path is unknown. I am lost in my own journey called life.How strange i don't understand my own life.

When i say i am searching for god why is it that people laugh at me!? What's so funny about it!? The happiness i know takes is own sweet time.Why there are times in my life its so dark that i cry to find that ray of light. Why is the sky empty. Where are all those stars which once shone upon me!? Where is that wave which once sung me a symphony!? Where is my god who wiped my tears. Where is he who once held my hand and said he would never let go!?

I played that game again. Its called "he loves me, He loves me not. "
Why i always lose the game!? Why does it always says "he loves me not" !

Update!

2010-05-14T17:53:00.003+05:30

Phew! Actually bunch of managers decided that there's gonna be a party today evening. So i thought i will attend the party n go crazy on the dance floor.But i am goin with half willingness. Dunno y. Right now waiting for the rest of the ppl to get ready n get goin. Cuz i don' have any work n waiting is so damn boring.Well, i am not dressed for th party but i guess i ll mange to dance with my jeans n top.N jeans r the most comfy stuff u can dance in. Unless the jeans lets u breath when u wear them. I was jjus goin through some blog written by a mother of 4 sons.I liked it. N it reminded me of how i used to blog like one crazy blogger. Bogging about everything and anything. Oh those were the happy days. N i miss them like hell. I jus wan my writing skills back. Wanna write up some funny stuff or a senti poem! Well yea nothing comes easy, tat i know.
But tryin really hard to write up something.But i think before writing up my masterpieace i will go with my silly write ups. The weather outside is simply awesome.I actually thought i will get ready. I might put some kajal n brush my hair.N when th spot light hits the dance floor i hope
i will dance the dance the night away! Never partied hard though. This time m gonna try some new dance moves. Or wil try to make up new friends. I will update on my party details may be tomorrow. Feeling sleepy already *Yawn*. N finding it hard to pen down my feelings unlike before. Trying to break my addiction to FB but its a bit hard thing to do. M not tat badly addicted to FB though. But any way these were my updates or today! M not at all happy with what i wrote :(. N there seems to be no proper flow to writing. Stopped reading books from ages. Tried to join some classes but could not. tats it cant think any thing more to update..

Q for life !!

2010-01-27T21:39:00.002+05:30

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back!

Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you
happy.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Love at first snow!

2009-12-17T08:02:00.004+05:30

When i reached my stop, I exchanged a shy look with Joshua. His deep blue eyes have left me numb since the day i saw him. Now i knew, why all the drama about my dressing this early morning. Joshua was back to office after a very long vacation. I wished he didn't get engage to some one during his vacation. So as i sat beside him waiting for the bus, i quickly scanned his finger. When his honey filled voice called my name, Hey Zoeeeeeeee, i smiled. I started remabling about everything that happened in his absence.

That's when the bus arrived. We both boarded the bus. I was shy to sit beside him. My loss was her gain. A young beautiful girl sat beside him. Which made m jealous as hell. and my mind stopped working, I was not sure if my heart was working. That's exactly when i realised two things, that i am madly in love with him and its freezing cold outside.And i am dressed for summer. Huh! The castle i built in the air vanished just like the air. I hit the rock bottom.

The whole day in my work place i was not sure if i knew what was going on around me. I was completely lost.I just wanted to go home and cry loudly. I left office early. As i stepped outside i saw the snow flakes.The first snow fall of the year.The beautiful snow didn't change my mood.I sat alone in the bus. Slowly the bus started getting filled. I saw Josh getting in. When he sat beside me i didn't know how to react.

I felt warm sitting beside him. When i saw his smile, i forgot that i was angry. He started telling me about his trip. When we got down, he asked me if i would like to walk with him. I nodded my head in response. He laughed at me, and gave me his coat. As we walked he held my hand.I was not quite sure what was happening. We sat by the tree side. The view was breathtaking. He said, Zoe, "she is not my girl friend".

I could feel that my face went all red with the rush of blood. He took my face in his hands and kissed me on my lips.
I felt warm and safe in his arms. My Love at first snow was pretty awesome! ^_^

Originally posted for Writer's Lounge

With Love,

2009-12-02T20:43:00.006+05:30

To,
My dearest Love,

Its that day of the year again, when i first caught you staring at me. Those are the memories i am hanging on to my love. Our first meet, first kiss are still so fresh in my memory.I just thought of writing you a love letter. Yea, i know, you would have said "how silly of you sugar"!! But love, how else can i tell you how much i love you!?

Do you remember the chocolate wrappers i showed you!? I still remember the way you laughed at me. Deep down you knew how much i treasured our love. Those red roses, which you said were your symbol of love for me, are still in that old notebook. Roses have dried up, but the memory is still so fresh. And those silly poems you wrote as a joke, i read them every single day. Believe me, as i always said they are just too romantic!! Mushi..

How jealous i used to get when you used to look at other girls. I miss those silly fights and crying for no reason. Love, do you remember when i used to just start fighting for no reason, you used to ask me Sugar, Are you on your periods or something!? God! Love, you know that makes me laugh so hard now. I am so sorry i troubled you a lot with my silliness.

Just one complaint,love. Life isn't as good as it was with you. I feel like i have lost a part of me. The part which i shared is still with you. I am sure you would have said, Sugar, stop reading those novels. you talk like one tragic heroine of the books you read.And it was funny to watch you say those words and also laugh hard. Oh! How much you loved pulling my leg until i cried. But then again your one kiss used to work wonders.

One more thing love, you don't have to worry about me now. I have a grip on myself. And i am doing just fine. I am reading books, listening to our favourite love songs. In fact i watched Titanic the other day all alone. Can you believe that!? But yea, i missed you terribly, love. I am not skipping meals nor getting drunk and dancing around. I am eating on time, meeting friends.I am just being your good girl. Just as i promised.

Christmas is just around the corner, and i have to start shopping. I know it would be boring without you. BTW, how is heaven!? Is it just the way we talked about? I am sure all your pain might have vanished. Tell god that i am angry with him. What about Santa? Is he just like we imagined? I am just waiting eagerly to be with you there. Its totally unfair for us to live in two different world. Cuz i am incomplete without you. And this world some how find it difficult to understand me, unlike you.

I Love You Forever. I Miss You !

With Love ,
Sugar

The Virgin Queen!

2009-11-27T22:04:00.008+05:30

Queen Elizabeth I of England, popularly known as The virgin Queen is one of the most powerful women i have ever read about.Her compassion and bravery has left me spellbound. The fact that her highness is called a virgin queen fascinates me. For a Queen like Elizabeth, a very pasionate woman, to remain unmarried and childless made her slip into the history written in gold. While her virginity remains a mystery. I have always been interested in history of different country. Not that i have read plenty. But of little what i have read, the chapter of The Virgin Queen would always remain close to my heart.

The Queen ruled the country of England and Ireland for 45 years, which was Called as the Golden Era. She must have been an extra ordinary woman for she still continue to influence a girl like me. Such an enigmatic queen in the history. She could have been so different in her life. She could have chosen a man of her choice, which she never did. Was it because of her obsessive love for her country which made her submit her whole life in shaping the nation like her own baby!? It could be the reason.

A very rare woman, a very rare Queen indeed. A Queen in a very true sense. Who went down the history for not just being another queen, but for ruling her country with her heart and soul.

She, till today is a unsolved mystery.

Dreamlike!

2009-11-25T21:28:00.010+05:30

I like to drift away in my own surreal world. Where my imagination come to life.The reality is too hard to understand.Its cruel and harsh.But in my world, i am safe. My deep dark secrets are safe with me. Thats why i get scared to get into the real world. My world to me is like slipping into flip-flops after wearing high heels whole day.Its far more relaxing and also makes me feel how burdened i was. Going to the world of reality is like getting lost in the woods, coming back home safe is like getting lost in my surreal world!

But it doesn't make me strong. Cuz i am scared even in my own world.I wonder if am strong enough to fall in love again. I am scared getting hurt again.I am scared to see my heart broken again. But will the world understand this!?Is the world started thinking, i have a strong back bone and i am a tough girl!?

That makes me laugh, cuz deep down i am just like any other normal girl.I might pretend like i don't care. I might fight back my tears. But i cant suppress my fears and emotions for long. I know i will break down one day.I am as fragile as every girl out there. The emotional breakdown, mood swings never leave me. Its like i am carrying them wherever i go.

The strange dreams i dream, some i remember when i wake up and some forgotten. Sadly i am not smart enough to interpret my dreams.I feel like life talks to us through our dreams, trying to tell us whats next. But again, i am scared to dream, cuz every dream doesn't come true.

I struggle to balance the real and surreal world. In my world,When the dusk falls, i cant wait to see the moon rising. I know its watching me.And i know there is nothing as beautiful as the new moon. Every morning when i leave to the real world, i have to pretend that sun is just a boiling object and butterfly is just an insect. Strange, isnt it. When a butterfly sits on me, its the perfect ecstasy for me. A very beautiful feeling, which the real world would never understand.

Thats why i am happy to live in a world, where sun is not just a sun, but my morning star. Where the moon is the love symbol and stars just don't stop shining on me. The world where some fairies come down to earth when the dusk falls.The world where i can be just me and dont have to pretend.

We Just need to go to the other side of the river to experiance the dreamlike world.

Just a thought

2009-11-25T09:17:00.001+05:30

Cry as hard as you want to.But,

Just make sure when you stop crying,

You will never cry again for the same reason!

Road Romeo!

2009-11-23T22:28:00.005+05:30

On the road u bumped into me
Picking my books, u said sorry
Your smile convinced me, thats when
Your fingers touched mine slightly

Walking together we talked all the way
I thought, he is not bad any way
Your presence made me a li'l weak
I guess we have a chance to click

You ordered my favourite maggie
Along with it chocolate brownie
The way you treated me was brill
Never thought i had to pay the bill

You said you will drop me home
I grinned like a cartoon
You asked me to get down at signal
Which was not at all gentle

The fantasy quickly disappeared
When i saw you flirting with that jerk head
I thought you would be my hero
Damn!U proved you are just another Road Romeo!

Why do you care what i feel

Stop pretending, You are so uncool

Stop tryin,You will go nowhere

Get a life, cuz i don't care

PS: Raj ho ya Rohit, sab ek jaise hai Damn It!! :D:P

Just tried some diff poetry :D

Fairy dust!

2009-11-22T00:24:00.009+05:30

Life is full of surprises. You know why!? Cuz one fine morning you just wake up lazily. Go to the window and pull the curtains, n what you see is its snowing in your town. Now that's definitely a pleasant surprise.

You walking down the lane lost in your thoughts and bump into some one, which is quite not a surprise, may b u need to b a li'l careful next time.But some days Later you bump into the same person again, well that's not a coincidence. Its a surprise.That's your destiny!

We all have this magic box full of unseen surprise gifts. Gifts like love, passion,courage, happiness. Do we open our gifts or did we just forget that we have one!? Even i am not quite sure if i have opened mine yet.

Surprisingly i have stopped chasing something, which i had no clue about. May be somethings aren't meant be chased.I realised its right here with me, in that invisible box. Now i just let it free and come to me. I need to listen to my heart and do what it says. They say if you listen to what your heart says you will never go wrong.

That's what i am trying to do. I am just setting myself free. Spreading my wings, cuz i know now i am ready to fly. Fly away like a butterfly..Its not just a metaphor i am talking about. We do really have those unseen wings, but it takes a life to realise.

Now is that unfair!? Well i don't think so. Its our fault if we don't know what we have with us. We have a tremendous power to make a huge difference in our lives. I have this gift called smile, which i cant just stop. I guess that's my fairy tale power or gift. I believe that, if not all but at least i leave few enchanted with my smile. May be it brightens up some one's day.

I have learnt to be strong when things aren't goin pretty well. Things never turn up the way i want any way, so why worry about it!? I just need to keep walking, and i believe that some day when i am unaware of whats gonna happen next, a magical door will open up unexpectedly and bring me the whole lot of surprises. Just the feeling of it keeps me going in life. I dunno whether its hope or faith. But it works for me.

It doesn't end here.The struggle continues. It only makes us stronger day by day. might not be smiling all the time. Some days i could be crying hard for no reason.I might lose something precious some day. Amidst of all this struggle i will remember that i still have plenty of surprise gifts to open up. Some, might be small, some too big.

I hope when we are given choices, will choose the right one. But surprises don't ask us to choose. They just come on our way. Leaving us wondering,how did we get this lucky. Reality is Some one out there knows what exactly we deserve.

One shouldn't stop dreaming when some tales in life doesn't have happy endings.
Dream up a new one.

Each one of our life is a fairy tale. So why not live like one!?
Just don't forget to sprinkle the fairy dust in your life!

Smile is Broken

2009-11-17T22:10:00.005+05:30

Its so hard to pretend that everything is okay and smile, While deep down you are hiding your pain. Walking with a broken pieces of heart hurts more than a wounded knee.When the sad song comes up you think of him. While walking alone you wish for him to hold your hand. When it feels cold, you wish for him to hold you tight and never let go. The sad time they say will pass by and brings happy time.

But life gets tired of waiting for that happiness, you get used to your misery.The happiness comes n goes, without making a hush. Its funny how we keep looking for it.When will this pain really goes away!?Why is life so hard at some point of time. Every day i feel its falling apart. N i keep searching for the pieces. IS that it? Is that the purpose of my soul!?

The music i thought would heal me one day. But now it doesn't make any sense.Nothing feels good. Who says walking in the rain washes your pain and tears?Its just that the sky is weeping at your broken heart.

Oh! how i feel like ruining away from the crowd and lock myself in the room. My loneliness kills me, but still it comforts me too. I don't want anybody see me crying.Life is so cruel some times. The day time, sunshine doesn't cheer me up.The nights i wish never comes.

How i wish this suffering ends here and give me some peace. But life is of course a stubborn lesson you are forced to learn. I just wish after years when i iook back, the suffering would be worth. Life for me is like a math question.Phew! Just the thought of it makes me run away.

It makes me think again. Whats the point of running away, any way!? Yeaaa i dunno what i am running away from, whom i am trying to ignore. N hell yeaaaa i dunno what i want from my life. Its weird but some times i feel i am growing younger, just like Ben button. Cuz i am supposed to be more matured for my age. But the real me is as confused as a new born baby.

They say what you give to life it gives you back! Damn! I feel like cursing the one who said this. What else should i give to life!? I am done being a good girl and getting my heart bloody broken eavery time.To hell with people who create unnecessary drama in my life. The first thing i am gonna do is to be strong even when my life is fallin apart.

I am done running away. I am done faking my smile.For once i really, truly wanna live my life happily.. I just wanna stop being pathetic. Guess i need to get a life :(

Will You !?

2009-11-14T22:17:00.015+05:30

Will you hold my hand

And walk with me

To the fairy land

Just you and me

Will you be my side

On the moonlit beach

Just to dance

To the music of sea

Will you pluck the stars

To fill my palms

Just make a wish

When the star falls

Will you be my strength

When i lose my hope

Cuz the ray of light

Comes from the way you smile

Will you sing my fav song

Of romance and love

Just to make me smile

When i am crying hard

Will you blow me a kiss

When you go away

Leaving behind your heart

Just to be with me

Will you hold me tight
When it pours outside
Just be my rainbow
And my sunshine

Will you whisper I Love You
Early in the morning
With a tender kiss
And a warm hug

Will you kiss me in the rain

Dancing under the moon

Thats when the magic will unfold

From deep within my heart

Will you look at the moon

When i am not around you

And think of me

The way i look at it to find you

Will you love me

Today and tomorrow

Promise me you'll be mine

For now and forever

Will You!?

Dressed To Kill

2009-11-11T22:10:00.006+05:30

Dazzle in the eye

Ravishing boots high

Envious curves

Sizzling scarves

Sensuous skirt

Enriched velvet

Diamond studded belt

Twinkling charm bracelet

Opal, bright on shirt

Killer looks

Image of a goddess

Lass with a class

Leaving you breathless

Posted for Acrostics.

Love Or Crush!?

2009-11-10T23:38:00.007+05:30

You smile at me and suddenly i feel everything is alright

When you hold my hand, i know my tiny world is safe
Your tender kiss set my world on fire

The way you gaze at me makes me breathless.
Your hot breath on my neck makes me so weak.

Your absence makes me lose my mind!
When you talk to other girls, i feel so weird in my tummy
I innocently decide to punish you, thats when i stop sayin "hi"to you.

Holding my hand you dance just to steal my heart.
Sitting with you and watching the millions of gazing stars feels like the right thing to do.

Just wanna say i miss you.

I miss you even when you are around

I just wish its better be love n not just another crush!

Heaven

2009-11-09T19:03:00.006+05:30

Holy Mansion

Eternal kingdom

Ageless life

Victory crowned

Elegent angels

Noble temple

Posted for Acrostics.

PS: Phew! It was a tough job..

America

2009-11-07T19:57:00.006+05:30

Amazing New-York
Mesmerising LA
Enchanting Vegas
Romantic California
Icy Alaska
Cute Obama
An absolute wonder

Posted for Acrostic

P.S : In love wit the beautiful country - USA
Vasudha 07/11/2007

Cinderella

2009-10-31T21:02:00.008+05:30

I was dressed in a worst way possible for no reason and walking rather a haunted road.As usual ear phones in my ears, i was carefully listening to the song.As it was best suited for my black mood.I wasn't sure if i was angry or upset cuz of my loneliness. I kept on walking, without knowing where i was headed to. I dint have any money to go for shopping.

I was thinking about Cupid for know reason. I keep talking to him quite often.Asking him why he keep encountering me with his stupid arrow. The smell of spicy food caught my attention. Then i realised , i forgot to feed my poor stomach. I badly wished some one would take me for a dinner. But this thing called LUCK never strike to me on right time.

I lost track of the path, i just turned back to trace back my road. I walked way too much lost in my never ending thoughts.As i was walking my Ipod stopped playing, Shit ! I should have charged it, i thought to myself. Now that music wasn't playing the road i had taken seem to be a very quiet, n a li'l darker than before.I again started to think, what if some one comes and try to mug me or kidnap me!? Well, it never happened to me before. I have seen lots of horror movies, so i kind of knew how to handle such situations.

I kept on walking slowly. I looked up at the sky, i found the moon beaming at me. I begged the stars to sprinkle some kind of luck on me. Hmmm it looked like This whole universe is just some cave like place where every thing is put in its place. Stars, after all mere stones may be! I was driving myself crazy with my weird thoughts.

Suddenly i jumped when the dog started barking from the top of the lungs. I couldn't actually make out from which house the dog was barking from. I looked back and found a man walking towards me. Good Lord, Did he read my mind n came here to kidnap me!? I asked quickly to god.. It felt liked he was smiling at me.I thought he must be that psycho my Friends have been warning me about.I couldn't clearly see his face in that darkness.

I started walking swiftly, then started running. I saw him running right behind me. It felt like my mind went numb, n stopped working. I was thinkin hard whether to scream for help or not.Luck dint strike, but bad LUCK surely did. I twisted my ankle slightly n fell down. Shit! I said it out loud. He came so close to me i was all set to scream. I caught a glimpse of his face. His deep black eyes, hypnotising smile struck my heart, He laughed out loud n helped me get up.

OMG! that was the boy i was so madly in love with, but never had the courage to say hi.My mouth was hung open wide. I realised i was looking like a stupid. Why on earth do we have meet like this. He brought me to real world. He said hi, n stretched his hands. I held his hands a little tight.My hands felt so small, in his tight grip. I saw you dropped your Ipod, i thought i ll return it n take you for coffee,he said without realising that i forgot to breath.

He returned my Ipod n i was still not ready to open my mouth to say. Its now or never, i thought.Thanks, i said in a rather faint voice.My clumsy dress made me so embarrassed. But still i couldn't stop staring at him.Well, by now he might have known that i am in some way crazy about him. He then took me for a dinner instead of coffee. All the way laughing at me until his eyes were filled with tears. He took me for a dinner , where i wished for some one to take me, Wow! Was that luck!?Or Cupid!? :)

Through out the dinner, i found him very easy going. He put me at such ease, i forgot how badly dressed i was.He walked me to my room. He held my hand while walking. Silent walk holding his hand would always remain the most precious moments of my life : A walk to remember. I felt like Cinderella. Cinderella n her prince Henry walking the royal path. This thought felt so real to me. Cuz that night whatever i wished was granted to me.I made another wish silently. In my heart i wished, this boy right here, who has captured my heart, be my Prince charming.

He kissed me good night on my cheeks, which were a little cold. His warm lips made my heart skip a beat. He said, Now please go and sleep, don't think about walking at mid night, giving that smile away which makes me feel, my heart doesn't belong to me any more. I promised him i would sleep. I watched him walk away.Cupid finally struck me with right person. I blew a flying kiss to Cupid. How strange the night was, When i expected the least i received the most of it.

I felt happy for myself. Thanks for the Shoe, oops i mean Ipod! :p

Cinderella found her prince charming. What more could she ask of her life!?

Broken Angel!

2009-10-14T00:27:00.005+05:30

Life once takes a turn, you cant go back in time. Now i wonder what are my priorities in life!? I am growing older, but at the same time my confusion is also growing.When will i ever have a clear mind!?? When will i be able to clearly make a decision on my own!?? For pete's sake when will i really grow up!????

Honestly, I try really hard to understand this thing called LIFE!! Which makes me cry,laugh, forget things, prioritize everything, .. Why cant i live a life of eve in a garden of Edan, but of course without Satan poisoning her mind..Why am i Cupid's victim every single time!???Why do i struggle to be perfect! Why on earth should i behave myself in office?? I mean nobody is questioning me though..I feel like my charm is slippin away ... Dunno wat to do!

Its funny how priorities keep on changing in life without our knowledge.When we get what we wanted the most we lose the fun of the game, taking that thing for granted. We realise the value only when we lose it!

Gone are the days when i used to write every tiny detail about m crazy outings, Scary night outs.. Gone are the sweet days i used stay awake till late night like an owl thinkin about Edward Cullen[ Not tat i don think abt him now ]But things have changed.. My priorities in life have changed as wel.

But Of Course Love has its own top priority.. N music as well.Friends came and departed.. At some point life was shattered into pieces..Life moves on, no matter what happens around us.. We get used to the changes so very well without knowing. Now when i look back, i feel what a drastic change!!

I horribly miss curling up in my blanket and reading my favorite book. I miss eating hot maggie while watching a movie. I miss my silly writings. I miss my poems.I miss my blog!I miss every little thing which once made me happy.Like Sidney Sheldon, how his books made me go crazy. Harry potter, how i so badly wanted that wand, and kiss harry at least once..Edward Cullen Irresistible lovable vampire loving me in my dreams.. Avril's songs ..

I am missing something, but dunno what!? Some things in life changes, i agree. But some facts like my confusion is stubborn to fade away!!

I am still the same old Confused girl !! Your same old Broken Angel !

Happy Bday MJ!!

2009-08-29T17:41:00.003+05:30

After ages i am writing something. Wel its all cuz today's MJ's bday..
How badly i miss him :(.
I was jus shufflin the channels n found out that VH1 has contributed this day for his songs,
It was amazing watching all his songs back to back.

All i wanna say is A Very happy birthday to MJ. Though you weren't with us today, we celebrated ur bday with ur music.

P.S I Love you More .. Miss You!

First Date

2009-08-05T12:44:00.003+05:30

Fancy treat
Interesting feast
Reddened cheeks
Shy crimson face
Talking in silence

Deceiving each other
Acting very cool
Trying to impress
EverReady to take a chance

Posted for Acrostics

Moonlight Melodies ...

2009-07-28T11:38:00.003+05:30

Majestic moon
On the horizon
Overlay its shimmer
Nature filled with glitter
Laces of moon rays
Illusion in many ways
Glows like a pearl
Heaven's precious jewel
Thousands of stars display marvel

Musical notes in the sky
Enchanting stars so high
Lavish lashes of musical strings
On the cloud, mellow sound it brings
Dancing to the tune of new moon
Immersed in the pleasure alone
Enigmatic view of the falling sky

Starry night takes my breath away

Posted for Acrostics Only

How Great Thou Art ..

2009-07-20T12:33:00.006+05:30

Heavens, you created with one word
Ordered the earth to rotate around
Wonders of the universe make me spellbound

Glory of your throne, seen so close
Rainbow reminds me of your promise
Everlasting love, you poured on us
Awesome God you are, broke all my curses
Took away all my sins on the holy cross

Twinkling stars you made, to shine on me
Handsome Moon just to beam at me
Oceans roaring loud, praise your glory
Under sky your creation praise your mercy

Amazing grace you bestowed
Redeemer of the sinful world
Together we pray in one accord

GOD, Why Me???

2009-07-20T09:03:00.006+05:30

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player from USA was dying of AIDS which he got due to infected blood he received during a heart surgery in 1983. From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: “Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease"?

To this Arthur Ashe replied: “The world over - 50 million children start playing tennis, 5 million learn to play tennis, 500,000 learn professional tennis, 50,000 come to the circuit, 5000 reach the grand slam, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, when I was holding a cup I never asked GOD ‘Why me?’.

Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrow keeps you Human,
Failure keeps you Humble
Success keeps you Glowing,

but only
Faith & Attitude Keeps you Going…

"Have great hopes and dare to go all out for them, Have great dreams and dare to live them, Have tremendous expectations and believe in them .

~ Arthur Ashe.”

Thought : "One prayer can change the moment, one moment can change the day, One day can change your life" .

Kissing..

2009-07-17T11:39:00.002+05:30

Kindle fire

In my heart

Soothing touch

Seductive lips

Intense pleasure

Naughty desire

Grows higher

One Foot In The Grave ..

2009-07-16T11:49:00.004+05:30

On a dark cold night

Narrow street whispers in silence

Echoing the unheard voice of the past

Frighting creepy sight

Owl scorching me with delight

Odd sounds of my thumping heart

Trembling my traitor feet

Invisible shadows crawling

nearing me smiling

Thunder increasing my heart beat

Haunted graveyard acting polite

Eagerly waiting for the blood filled feast

Ghosts of the forgotten past

Roar with the regretting laugh

Afraid of the life saving light

Valley of unsaved soul

Enters the burning deep hell

Posted for Acrostics Only ..

PS: Graveyard My all time fav topic :)

Unforgettable ..

2009-07-16T10:01:00.004+05:30

Undying love

Neverending talks

From dusk till dawn

Our old memories

Reminds me of the past

Gorgeous you

Enchanting me

Together we lived

Till your purpose was served

Along my way

Beside me you stay

Loving you more

Even when you are gone !

PS, I Love You

A dedication to My favourite Holly and Gerry.

You Guys ROCK !!

2009-07-15T11:16:00.004+05:30

A new look for my blog baby. I like the new look. Its much lighter and bright. Though previous one was my favourite. Black is my fav colour. But this time just for a change i chose light coloured theme. The purpose of this post is to thank my friends for writing heart touching,emotional and some hilarious guest posts for me :). N of course revealing the evil me ^-^ .

First of all i would like to talk about my very close and best blog buddy swetha padakandla, who has been my silent admirer,supporter. She was my first follower.And till to this very day she is the one to comment on all my posts. A giant bear hug sweetie. Thanx for being my angel friend.Since i don't socialise much in blog town, i have very few friends. N swetha is one among very few.

Love and adore her a lot. For those who dunno her, she is as sweet as honey cake,as cuddly as pooh bear, n as naughty as me LOL !! Yes our thoughts,style are a bit similar. I forgot to ask her to teach me tulu btw :o .She is one gorgeous friend, gem of a person. Someone who could make a pillar to talk, stone to dance.Hmmm her talks might actually make you faint sometimes.
We share a good bonding.

We have been chatting since a very long time. Orkutting day and night, gtalk chatting are our old memories.Honey may god give you all the happiness in the world. I actually don;t believe in givin awards and all.Cuz they never convey my messages.God's blessings are our biggest awards.So here you go sweets, may god shower his blessings on you, and may ur life overflow with happiness..

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ..

Arun Manipal basically a Manipal boy is my best friend who knows me to the core.He is worried all the time about me, cuz he thinks i suffer from split personality. HuH! "Boys" ! *Rolling eyes to heaven* . He can't handle me, so he thinks like that. He is one crazy person on this earth.

I pull his leg all the time. But he doesn't mind at all. He is always ready to laugh at my silly,rotten jokes.Calls me from far far away kingdom *some-desert-city-in-Dubai* on special occasions and on random days as well to make sure i am still alive and hoping the city is still safe in my presence !! All in all Arun is my best buddy. I call him goobe *OWL*.His pet name LoL !

He was the one to help me out to start my blog. Though he lives in a far away alien land, he proved that friendship has no barriers. I promise Arun our friendship will blossom like a Jasmine in a desert givin us the comfort with its fragrance.
Muah!

Now Big celebrity Mr.Pravil who has come into my big movie-like-life has played his role *i.e Monkey* pretty well. He is the one i take for granted.The one i keep bugging with my stupid stories.I have given him millions of movie list, which he never gonna watch though.Huge list of books also. He has seen me crying, bursting out into laughter in pin-drop silence.He has seen my mood swings, my anger, my heights of craziness.

I wonder how can any one handle a package-of-trouble *me* soooooooo easily????????????????????? I have always declared " I am not a regular chick, baby!! " I do weird things, i like crazy things. He knows that i am tooooooootally nutsssss. And i like getting insane. Thanx hon for bearing my madness .Thanx for listening to my so-boring stories. Thanx for being my RAINBOW.

Muah!

Love you guys.You guys are the BEST !! Thanx a ton for making me feel special ..Thanx for giving the feel of celebration. All three of you took my requests seriously and wrote such beautiful posts. *Group hug* .But plz take bath before we hug. Now lets raise our glass, i wanna toast it to our everlasting, beautiful,crazy friendship !!!

You Guys ROCK !! :~)

Lub U

VaSu

BlossomBlue Blossoms Forever - By Mr.Celebrity

2009-07-13T15:57:00.024+05:30

Sunday, early morning at 2.00 AM. I was in my office, sitting in front of my favorite iMac, half asleep, covering my big ears with my headphone, lost myself in my own dreamland…. Suddenly my feet touched the ground and I came back to the senses hearing a male voice, echoing in my ears “Yo man… u know what… these bloody Indians sucks..! I am gonna sue Apple u bet…”, which hurted the very patriotic me. It was the genuine heart felt reaction of an American customer who got pissed of as the Apple technician didn’t pick up the call even after so many “hello”s and “u der”s…

I wanted to greet the customer to impress him (Customer is the King... smile when u talk to him, even if u r sitting pissed off getting screwed up by the manager.. hehe) and give opening script… but.. I was not getting words… OMG..! what is happening to me…? Nothing came to my mind. The only one thing came to my mind was the picture of a flower… just a flower….? …. Even I saw my desktop filled with flowers nothing else.!…. Blue flowers…. Everywhere…..

Yes Blossomblue………. !!!!

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[Mr.Pravil - Big Celebrity Is in the above pic. Courtesy : Miss VaSu :p]

First of all, thank you very much my dear for giving a chance to be a part of ur wonderful blog. I feel proud being privileged to be a part of the celebrations…! Sorry for making u compel me so much to get a guest post written by me…., for acting like a 'big celebrity' as u always tell me. Actually folks, Vasu asked me to write a guest post in the Blossomblue long back and m writing this just 1 day prior to the D- Day… such a lazy a** I am….and I am sure she was afraid that the b’day may pass on without my post…. Sorry again.

Now I wanna share something about this sweet young lady. Err…. gal… (or else she is gonna kill me… LOL)

She is a gal who is short tempered, arrogant, who sometimes shouts over the fon so that u can hear her even without the fon… hehehe. Just joking guys. I usually pull her leg saying this when she loose her temper (tho it happens very rare)

Jokes apart guys… Lets be serious ;-)

Vasu…. a short ‘facts n figs’

Can’t live without music man…!

'Oops I did it again…' Oye Britney.. I ‘ll die for u.

'Love story By Taylor Swift'.... "We were both young when I first saw you… " my favorite .

“Heal The World Make It A Better Place For You And For Me And The Entire Human Race..” Good Bye my dear Jacko…. (She cried a lot the day MJ passed away. Still she becomes moody wheneva I talk about him… May his soul RIP)

A Mega Movie Buff, who likes romantic and comedy movies a lot.

“FRIENDS”.. Oh man u gotta watch the complete series.. I ‘ll give u all the DVDs…. Its so awesome…. (Tho I usually don’t show dat much interest… still she bugs me a lot with the Chandler and Monica stories… ;-) jokin)

Egg Curry… She can run a ship in her mouth after reading just this one line. Big time foodie… who like the north Indian and Chinese food very much…

‘SMS’- Hey dude can u beat me in typing msgs fast….?(ek dhum attitude..) yup.. a big msg maniac…!

Shoping… “I hate this man…. tis shopping. I only do Window Shoping”
(Pravil… beware of the crow. Jhoot bole kauwa kate.. lol)

Above all….. Vasu is a gal With a caring and luving heart, who is…

So adorable and ambitious

Straight forward and bold

God luving and God fearing…

Loves Jesus more than anyone…..!

Have the real values of life….

Fun loving, loves to be adventurous and to be experimental..

Being different.

She ‘ll do anything for friends.. but dun mess with her….

She is…. A lil bit confused with her life sometimes , like all other individuals….

Bit moody…..

On top of all… she…… Have a good heart and wanna do lots of things for the ppl who are under privileged… deprived of love… those who are sidelined from the society…

I am stopping here…. Its going so lengthy…. I may ‘ve to start a new blog for this… .

Now back to Blossomblue….

I met Vasu merely 5 months back and biliv me, from the day when she gave me the blog URL till today, I xpect one new post everyday Coz her posts are very beautiful and come directly from heart… And I became very happy as I got a chance to know a person who is a blogger…. As I started thinking to be a part of this Blogosphere years back…. But still it’s a dream…

But if I start a blog, all the credit will go to Vasu as she is keep on encouraging me to start a blog.

Any writing ..let it be a poem or novel, it fulfils the duty of its creation only when it justifies the feel with which it was written. Only when the author can lift the people to the same emotional level which he/ she underwent while penning the same….

Let it be happiness, sadness, lonliness, romance, arrogance, hatred, spirituality.. any feeling…

In dat way… ur poems touched my heart many times. And I know lots of people like it. So keep writing my gal…

u maynot be the BEST… but I know u r ‘NOT LIKE THE REST’ .

Wishing your sweet little baby Blossomblue a warm hearty B’Day

May Jesus help you to come with more and more touching poems…. !

“May your Blossomblue blossoms forever, forever….. and forever……!”

With Loads of Love and Prayers…

pRavil….. Ur Best Friend Foreva !

Arab Desert wishes Dharwad Jasmin… By Arun Manipal

2009-07-13T08:02:00.005+05:30

July 10, 2009. Its very hot days going on in Arabian Emirates desert. My watch shows 5.30pm . I came out from my room and I left my city back. It’s a plain desert infront of me. I came out from my car and told to my friend “take back the car and come back to pick me up at 9.30 pm.” After our talk he went back with the car. Here the air is breezing slowly from east and I can hear the whisper of breeze. I can see designs of sand which is made from the breezing air. Sun is going setting down in west and he looks quite red. As I was walking, my foot silently made a foot print on the sand . I always use this walk to write something. Now it’s a day to write a guest post to BlossomBlue so I’m lonely walking in desert and thinking about Blossom.

I still remember those days when she was going to create a blog named “blossomblue”. That day Vasu suddenly asked me “hey goobe blog hyage post madbeku ond article ge ondu blog madbeka…?.” I told her “nin tale ondond post ge ondond blog create madidre savira blog agutte hagalla” after which we both started laughing.

In between I was confused with spelling that I thought blossom spelling is BLOSSUM so I told her “That spelling is wrong…?” Then she got confused and asked me “what’s wrong goobe..?” then I told again about spelling mistake. After she checked that again she got angry with me and told “goobe blossom spelling is correct nin tale”.. Then I agreed with this genius girl. From then Vasu’s blogging days started. I forgot to tell that she was in Davangere those days.

There is no doubt that Vasu is a good and genius writer. Let me tell you the history behind this… :P
In Dharwad, there is one famous saying in kannada. i.e “If you are in Dharwad simply you throw one stone where you want and that stone will surely hit either any poets or any writers or an artists home.” :D
That means Dharwad is filled with so many writers and poets. I would like to remember all of them in this guest post…please permit me..

Dr V K Gokak, Chennaveera Kanvi, Betageri Krishna Sharma, Shri Ranga, Girish Karnad,leena Chandavarkar, Prof. Bhusnurmath,Dr Shankar Mokashi punekar,saali Ramachandra Rayaru, Basavraj Kattimani , Dr M M Kalburgi , Dr R.Y Dharwadkar, Prof. Kittel, Alur Venkatagirirao,Narayanarao Huilgol, Padmashri G.B. Joshi('Jada Bharata'), Keerthinath Kurthakoti, Shambha Joshi,Chandrashekhar Patil('Champa' who started Bandaya Sahitya),Patil Puttappa (Papu), Dr.G.S.Amur novelist, poet and critic.'Kunchabrahma' Halabhavi,N K Kulkarni and many more…;)

(I hope nobody fainted reading this big list of famous people)
Hey you guys did you guess I missed someone…? No I didn’t forget .. Its my very own favorite poet Varakavi Dattatreya Ramachandra Bendre.
All these genius Gold and Pearls Born in Dharwad and they given their best to our literature world.

The Jnanapeeth award- the highest award in literature, was conferred to two giants of literature , DR D R Bendre and Dr V K Gokak…
Okay now think of Vasudha, she came from which land ..? ;) now don’t think she is very easy.. ;). I say she is having very good writing talent in her blood as it comes from her motherland . That’s why her blog posts looking different and awesome.

Now here sun has completely disappeared and I can see moon smiling at me.
Before I go back to my world, let me wish blossomblue the first birth day with this heavy breeze blowing out here ..Happy Birthday to blossumblue….;) My wishes and blessings are always with you. ;)

I came out from my thought’s when I heard the horn from the car. My friend came back as I watched him coming from a far distance. The car was coming near to me. I had already come very far from the main road. As I saw the time, it was 9.20 PM. My friend had come 10 minutes early.. :P

As I entered the city. Its Emirates road car going on 100km speed .
I also though to finish my guest post with one of my favorite poem line which is written by DR Bendre. I hope vasu would like it..

ಗಮಗಮಾ ಗಮಾಡಿಸತಾವ ಮಲ್ಲಿಗಿ ನೀವು ಹೊರಟಿದ್ದೀಗ ಎಲ್ಲಿಗೆ? ಗಮಗಮಾ...........

ತುಳುಕ್ಯಾಡತಾವ ತೂಕಡಿಕಿ ಎವಿ ಅಪ್ಪತಾವ ಕಣ್ಣ ದುಡುಕಿ ಕನಸು ತೇಲಿ ಬರತಾವ ಹುಡುಕಿ ನೀವು ಹೊರಟಿದ್ದೀಗ ಎಲ್ಲೆಗೆ?
ಚಿಕ್ಕಿ ತೋರಸ್ತಾನ ಚಾಚಿ ಬೆರಳ ಚಂದ್ರಾಮ ಕನ್ನಡಿ ಹರಳ ಮನಸೋತು ಆಯಿತು ಮರುಳ ನೀವು ಹೊರಟಿದ್ದೀಗ ಎಲ್ಲೆಗೆ?
ಗಾಳಿತಬ್ಬತಾವ ಹೂಗಂಪು ಚಂದ್ರನ ತೆಕ್ಕಿಗಿದೆ ತಂಪು ನಿಮ ಕಂಡರ ಕವದಾವ ಜೊಂಪು ನೀವು ಹೊರಟಿದ್ದೀಗ ಎಲ್ಲಿಗೆ?
ಗಮಗಮಾ ಗಮಾಡಿಸತಾವ ಮಲ್ಲಿಗಿ ನೀವು ಹೊರಟಿದ್ದೀಗ ಎಲ್ಲಿಗೆ? ಗಮಗಮಾ...........

Thanks to (ಗಂಗಾವತರಣ - ಕವನ ಸಂಗ್ರಹ)

Thank you for inviting me to be your guest! My blessings with you..

With Love

ArUn

Ocean of Pearls - By Swetha Padakandla!

2009-07-11T10:25:00.012+05:30

Pretty pearl, shining bright, sparkling brilliantly as the time passes by!!!
am cho cho very happy to write a guest post to this girl... oh yeh yeh, this very same girl who made me enter the blogging world!
and on july 13th she will be celebrating her 1 year grand celebration.. wowwiiieee... am more than excited!

ok ok let me let out my secret that even vasudha doesnt know..
i came to know this girl through a friend of mine and we were in contact only through chats and msgs.. but never did i know that she writes too.. the same mutual friend of ours gave me this blog URL.. i was so very happy to see her blog and all her writings.. straight down from her heart and so very lovely posts!
i was wondering how beautifully she writes and so very like crazy and funny yet so very nice!!
everyday i used to walk into this blog and enjoy reading it.. this blog was like so very secret to her she didnt even knew that there are few people like me who used to adore her posts!

after so many months, i thought i should let her know that i read her blog.. with tension and fear on one side.. i wrote my first comment on her blog this year!
and she was so happy and i felt so good about it..

I thought why dont i write a blog too.. i knew it wont reach to her heights but still thought of giving it a try! and i started writing blog this year! i stepped into blogsville only coz of her! and i am so very happy to have entered here! a big thanks to this chweeet girl for all this!

Your cheerful smile
Makes me happy
You are a special girl
there is no disguise
You have a been a true friend
Be the same always

# click on the pic to see it doing boogie style!!

me and u are friends
u smile, i smile
u cry, i cry
u hurt, i hurt
u laugh, i laugh
u jump off the bridge
i gonna miss ur blog..

Pearly, I have already a sent a wonderful gift for the birthday celebration through courier to your house! by now, it must have reached you.. hope you liked it..
people, who wants to see what i have gifted her.. check this.. i have taken a photo of the gift..

a very very very happy birthday.. (to ur blog)

lots and lots, pots and pots, tons and tons, buckets and buckets of luvv,
Swetha!

okay so now where is my choci.. it didnt reach me still.. send it soon. am waiting!!

P.S: Rohit has given you a special blossom flower for the birthday celebration.. (I helped him to pick it too :P)
Click here to view it!

Memories..

2009-07-10T11:43:00.003+05:30

Memories : Some memories we try to forget, some unforgettable.Some good, some bad.Some bring tears, some make us smile.Some faces stick to our hearts,some fade away. All these bitter-sweet memories add a pinch of spice to my life.My life has been a roller-coaster ride.Many ups and downs.Sometimes i thank god for lovely life and heavenly happiness and sometimes i cry, get frustrated with my own life. A glimpse of my life has been put up in my blog.

On 13Th July 2009 my blog is going to be one year old baby. I am one very emotional, moody girl.That's why my baby blossom was born.Lot of memories .Love,breakup,crush,affair,friends,family,moods,shopping,movies,books all of these came in the form of poems,small stories,fiction,so many small articles.I never thought i will be good at poems. *but i am now* :p

But when one feels the pain the words just flow. When happiness overflows the words just come easy. As i sit and think about the journey along with my baby i feel i have changed a lot as a person.I have become a lot more a better person.I remember all the birthdays, fights,my anger,mood swings, and so many drastic changes in my sweet lil life !

I never wrote poems cuz i wanted to. I wrote them when i was extremely happy, when i was heart broken, when i was lonely,when i was missing someone,when i fell in love. When i read them, it reminds me of those wonderful days when i felt happy,sad or moody. My posts,my poems are a lot closer to me, cuz they reflect a genuine me.

I am very honest when i write my posts.I like and love myself a lot,So do my work.I don't tag myself the "BEST" But i can tag myself "NOT LIKE THE REST".This day i am proud to be what i am today. I am proud of my family,my friends ,for they mould me to a person i am today.

Many people came into my life, many friends left me when i needed them the most. But someone who stood with me in my misery,loneliness,happiness,happy days was and is my GOD and my FAMILY.

I love my lord Jesus the most. He changed my life. He love me the most.And that makes me the most loved,blessed and the most adorable in this whole world. I am so enriched by his blessings that i fall short of words to thank him.I thank him for the lovely family i have.Lord is my life and i live for him and only for him !

Since today morning i have been very emotional. May be jus a mood swing. But i feel pretty and beautiful cuz of lord's presence in my heart and in my life. Everything i have belongs to him.My heart is filled with his eternal, pure love. When i was searching for the true love, it ended in Jesus Christ's feet. He embraced me, i am his li'l angel kid.I love you Father for all that you have done to me.

Since the day i have accepted Lord, i am living the life of abundance with his grace.He mended my broken heart.I don't remember the last time i cried *touch wood*.Only thing i can remember is how me and my friends keep laughing and disturbing my colleagues in office.

So this blog is dedicated to all my Friends who make me laugh,smile,grin,blush,roll on the floor.Cuz i think we should keep smiling when we have teeth.No worries,no tears.This blog is to all those happy ppl out there. May god bless you all abundantly.May your hearts also be filled with his pure love.

My very close friends have written guest posts for me which will be published on Monday or may be today *grins* .

Some of my poems [click]:
Almighty
Death By Love
I Miss You
Teardrop

These aren't jus my poems, they are my feelings,my memories.I judge myself, n these are some of my best poems :)
Thanks sweetie for helping me to give links in blog..

P.S : 13Th July is not just a celebration but its all about my old memories ! I am glad i entered this magical town of blog ..
P.P.S : Don't worry abt the flow of the post !!

Perfect Weekend

2009-07-06T08:42:00.005+05:30

Yahoooooooooooooooooooo ! No i m not too hung over LoL ! Its just that i am all excited to write about my weekend fun. Damn it was truly fun filled weekend. I pampered myself so much last two days.I wish the weekends never ever end. I am feelin lazy right now.I am kinda confused from where should i begin with. I think i ll start with movies i watched. I watched Kambaqt Ishq and NY on each day respectively.

I liked KI more than NY. My fav Bebo looks stunning in the movie. Don't worry about what reviews the movie is getting, if you wanna laugh your ass off jus go n watch it. I sooo badly wanted to watch The hangover, but couldn't get tickets *sad*.I wll some how watch it any way. NY is average. KI is very good. The hangover is a must watch * The suggestion is for myself :p * !

The Sunday prayer service added more joy to my weekend. Pastor Johnson as usual was charming. The way he talks god words makes me soo happy. My heart was filled with eternal heavenly joy after the prayer. Every time i come out of prayer hall i feel i am a new person.

I could literally feel the transformation. God's presence delighted me a lot. Jiny who is the main guitarist makes all the song soo easy and beautiful.When we started singing i felt heaven was descending down . Wow that joy, happiness cannot be put into this tiny post. Any way god blessed me again on Sunday with his presence.

The next thing i did was a li'l *li'l !??* shopping. Yippee my fav section. But the forum was overcrowded. So we made it to Garuda mall. I brought myself some nice designer bags and wallet . If you really love yourself you should SHOP !!!

Morning Raga

2009-07-06T08:32:00.005+05:30

~ Boom Boom pow - BEP *Awesome*

~ All summer long - kid rock

~ Waking up in Vegas - katy perry

~ Climb - Miley Cyrus

~ Halo - Beyonce

~ Thousand miles - Venessa Carlton

These songs made up my early morning..

Plz leave your fav mrg songs too..

MJ

2009-07-03T13:19:00.007+05:30

Magnificent
Impeccable

Charming

Humble

Ageless

Eminent

Legend

Jazel

Awesome

Classic

Kind

Superstar

Original

Noble

P.S : Mike 'll b in my heart forever..

Morning Gloom !

2009-06-30T08:35:00.006+05:30

The beautiful weather of Bangalore is giving me early morning gloom's. I so love this weather but can't enjoy it.I feel like curling up in my cozy pooh-bear blanket, but now sitting in office i can only dream of it. One thing i hate early in the morning is my alarm. Which i am forced to use each day. This morning as my alarm rang to life, one thing i was telling myself was , weekend is just four days away, get up ! Still my body didn't respond so i slept off for another fifteen minutes. When i opened my tiny puffy eyes i was horrified. I had to get ready in just 10 minutes if i wanna catch the shuttle which takes me to office.

I gave up idea of bathing. I brushed my teeth in a time which light takes to travel. At the right time power went off. New problem in Bangalore. I searched for candle but i dint get any. I made up my mind the first thing am gonna do this evening is arrange my room once i am back. i pulled up my jeans n put on a woolen red top. I brushed my hair and put on my shoes. I dint have time to double check my bag. I ran as if i am running for my life.

Finally sitting in shuttle, i relaxed for a while. I immediately switched on to Indigo FM. I am Alive by Celine Dion Worked wonders for me. Almost everyday the track is played on Indigo. It cheered me up. Music is my morning Dose.I felt really awesome, with a heavenly weather and a nice song ! The gloom slowly faded away with the music.Now i am done with my morning dose for my blog. I am gonna sip some hot coffee lattee and start my work. Ciao !

P. S : I might be stinking *Yawns* :p

May he rise again !

2009-06-26T11:03:00.005+05:30

I am still in shock.. I dunno when exactly i ll come out of it.. Such terrible loss ! No one could ever be worhty enough to replace MJ. His big shoes can again be filled with only him. Heavenly father i kneel down and pray, May our beloved MJ rise again from the ashes. When a person like me who knows so li'l about MJ is feelin so terrible i can't even imagine how terrible his family is feeling right now. His untimely death has given me a shock of a lifetime. My grief is impossible to put into words. Sitting in office i can just write down my emotional trauma. Oh ! MJ you will always be the king. You will always be remembered. I miss you MJ. Miss you a lot !

King Of Pop .. MJ

2009-06-26T08:00:00.007+05:30

The sad demise of king of pop has shaken my tiny li'l world. Though i am not a die hard fan of MJ, i was shocked when i heard the news of his death. God ! Death of such a mammoth celebrity has made the earth stand still ! I have always admired his dance. The king of pop who lived like a king is no more, is so hard believe. Right now my mind is blank. My senses are numb ! I really don't know why suddenly i am feeling sick. I feel like i have lost something very precious.

As i said earlier i am not his die hard fan, but honestly i don't know why i am feeling this sad. I guess MJ was one such celebrity who occupied our heart without our knowledge. I might not know his history, i might not the lyrics of all his songs, I might not be a great fan of him.But music which is a inseparable part of my life and MJ has bonded us. MJ might not be physically present with us today, but he has left behind his legacy !

May god strengthen his family..

May his soul rest in peace !

Forever Yours..

2009-06-19T09:28:00.013+05:30

Falling for you again

On this starry night

Rebirth, I don't believe in

Eternal love, I believe in

Vowing myself to you

Etching your name in my heart

Recollecting the golden times

You and me spent together

Over years, till my last breath

Urging to be only with you

Refined will be my heart

Soulmate of my life

Fadeaway..

2009-06-18T15:32:00.003+05:30

Falling dusk

Abandons light

Disappearing shadows

Echos sorrows

Agony rising

Wishes fading

Across the cloud

You depart again

Ocean ..

2009-06-17T16:34:00.004+05:30

You be the blue wave
My soul, only for you it craves

I will be the sea shore
Come darling, hug me more

Everytime you leave me far behind
My tears will be carried to you by the wind

My heart says you will come again
Because you and me together make the ocean !

P.S : I had to delete it cuz i had first posted it in WL n then in my blog.

Its not alowed actually.. Any way now i guess i can repost it in my own blog :) .

Friends...

2009-06-17T14:03:00.002+05:30

The joy i shared
Miseries disappeared
when Tears i shed
your shoulder to lay my head

Never ending talks
Loud lasting laughs
Crazy on the roads
Shaking booty in the pubs

Shopping at the malls
Eating at McDonald's
The city we rule
Together we look cool

The pillow fight
Gossiping at late night
Bitching our birthright
Eating Maggie at midnight

We are Bunch of devils
Set free to raise the hell
People think we are freaks
Do we look like we care??

We are friends for life
Quarrels wouldn't last long
Promise we make
we would never break

You held my hand tight
When he broke my li'l heart
Together we will fight
For me you are the sunlight

We are the bestest pals
More like sisters
I thank heavens
For such sweet angels

You are my lover
Here i wanna declare
Best Friends forever

Boyfriends Whatever !

P.S : Had crossposted it on WL Long back..

Caring ..

2009-06-16T14:19:00.004+05:30

Cuddly bear hug

Affectionate warm heart

Rarest comfort

Innocent thoughts

Nestful of love

Graceful like a dove

P.S : Care of My lovely Mother..

The Alchemist

2009-06-16T08:36:00.004+05:30

Couple of days back, i had been to Brigade road for some random shopping. The first store i walked in was a small book store at the corner. I wanted to buy myself a book to treat myself. I was looking for a inspirational or a spiritual book. My friend had once suggested me "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho. But i was so addicted to Sidney Sheldon books, i didn't care to even look at the book. Some days later another friend suggested me the same book, saying its very different form the other novels. Give it a try. In a book store he again reminded me of that book. I took a copy of it, n read the reviews n short narration. Again i was not so sure of buying it.

Alchemist sounded like a science fiction to me, which involves chemistry.But I finally made up my mind and brought it. A very thin book compared to what i have read so far.I had started reading it some days later. My addiction to Sidney's novels and HP series was too much. I in fact read couple of books second or the third time, even though its boring to read it once you know the story. Some how i managed to start reading "The Alchemist" . Slowly the magic started to unfold.

As i turned the pages, it was growing more and more curious. Each word so inspirational. Santiago became my inspiration in a overnight. The way Paulo has described love, dreams and destiny is amazing. I finished reading the book this morning. The overwhelming feeling occupied my heart.

I have always been a nature lover, but today morning there was magic in the air, and the world looked a beautiful place to live. "The Alchemist" has changed my life style. But it again depends how you might take it. Cuz i am girl, who sleeps at night with her eyes filled with dreams ! So "The Alchemist" has become very close to my heart.

It has the power to transform our lives. Its just not another book for me. It occupied the highest position in my stack of books. I started treating it like a second bible ! I am sure whenever i am down i ll go through the lines, where Paulo talks about chasing our dreams. The sub title of my blog, "Chasing My Dreams" was just a sequence of words. But "The Alchemist" gave it a new and a true meaning. I expected the least from the book, but what i received is the most.

Its far beyond some body's expectations. Its outstanding. I was relieved i read a book which taught me spirituality and also inspired me to chase my dreams, follow my destiny and always listen to my heart. "When you want something, all the universe conspires to help you achieve it" .The line itself says "The Alchemist" is to realise what we want in our lives.

WoW ! The feeling itself is sooo amazing, its very hard to express in words. I can go on and on about how The Alchemist has changed my life. But i leave it to you, so that you'll read it and experience it yourself. I am sure most of you have read it. I was a li'l embarrassed cuz, i read it soo late. I definitely would have missed something very precious if i wouldn't have read it. I am glad i made a right choice and bought this awesome book.

"The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho is a must read. The perfect ecstasy is felt when you read it !

No doubt Paulo Coelho is my Hero now !!

Romance ..

2009-06-11T12:22:00.008+05:30

Road to heaven is

Off the sea shore, so silent

Mesmerising sunset

Along with you, in twilight

Never ending serene night

Charming moon beams bright

Enchant my cupid struck heart

P.S : There are different types of romance. Such as Romancing nature, Romancing the mountain, Romancing the stone, Romancing with a boy. I chose Romancing Nature !

I Love You

2009-06-09T16:43:00.005+05:30

Invisible feeling

Loyal Heart

Overwhelming delight

Vibrant desire

Ecstasy personified

Yearning for you

Overjoyed In the

Universe of love

Unpredictable Life

2009-06-08T09:37:00.010+05:30

God gave light to my eyes to see,

But he din't tell me i would cry one day

God gave me love to make me happy,

But he din't tell me i would lose it one day

God gave me a li'l heart to stay alive,

But he dint tell me it would break one day

God gave me a man to live with,

But he din't tell me i would mourn in his absence

God gave me a life to live,

But he din't tell me i would die one day

The dilemma, unanswered questions, my confusion

makes my life so unpredictable.

Sometimes i feel i am trying to define my life,

rather than living it !

I am BLUE without YOU !

2009-06-03T16:50:00.003+05:30

I hide behind the bush
Without making a hush
But I feel blue
When i don see you

I sneak out with guts
but with your anger, it melts
I beg for your pardon
Singing your favorite song again

You turned red with your anger
But i will keep playing my guitar
Just to make you smile
I know, you are sulk just for a while

I will buy you a teddybear
If you stay with me here
I won't let you go ever
We are meant to be together

My sweetest angel you are
Hold my hand, please don't go far
I will serve you like your slave
Only with you i feel alive

P.S : For WL Pic-Nic Theme

M a li'l Naughty !

2009-06-01T22:14:00.004+05:30

I like my skirt a li'l short

It makes me look more hot

Favourite song playing out loud

Puts me in the dancing mood.

On the dance floor m a li'l naughty

Hell! I Like shaking my booty

On the table i like to hop

As the dj plays hip-hop

Moving my body as the music grooves

Dancing at night with my own moves
Sparkling lights, shine in my eyes

I shake my legs,I hear your awes

The music makes me breakaway

I like to dance the night away

As i hit the floor with my heels

All boys out there drools

non stop fun of the night

Shimmering in the limelight

The fun will never get over

Cuz I am a dance diva forever

You walk to me as if you wanna dance

But you think you missed a chance

Pretty you, Why feel so shy

Come here dance with me boy

Hope ..

2009-05-29T21:27:00.009+05:30

I walk to the far end in search of light. But it moves away miles apart. Amidst the past and the future i stand here in the present.Lost direction, wrong turns taking me to a unknown place,where i am lost again. The dark place and the cold harsh air.Black clouds, not a single ray of light.This place looks familiar to me.I have been here before, i thought.

I looked around for some help.I saw Some people wearing black clothes, looked like they have lost everything.I asked " Could you please help me find my way to light?? ". He replied, My name is sadness, all i can give you is a tear.It didn't sound horrible, for i have been through this way millions of times before. I just moved further, decided not to move back.

As i walked further, my heart felt a sudden sunken feeling.As if the evil is tearing me apart for the feast of the dark night.I crossed a stenching path.Darkness blinding me,Dark mist over my head. I desperately searched for someone i could go to and hold hands.But it was in vain.

I knew i have to go throw this all by myself.The man with burning dark eyes, rigid black face stared at me. I could tell by his expressions, He was someone like me, searching for light.I asked him "Could you please help me find my way to light??".He replied, "I am darkness, come with me and rule the dark".

I have been deceived by him once. I knew i have passed this stenching dark path many a times before. I refused politely and moved further.I was losing my hope.Trying hard to keep my faith alive. I looked back. I could see the footsteps.I could see my past. It was easy to trace back my steps. The hope and the faith could no more hold me together. Standing still i looked at both the sides.

Hard to decide whether to move forward or trace back my steps. I once, wished to go back and change everything. I thought, once i do that everything will be alright.But again, i have to pass through the stenching path and the valley of sadness.I looked on the other side, the path looked misty. I sat down, for it was difficult for me to decide.My mind was confused.I thought, if i move forward i might have to meet the darkness again. But if i move back, i might lose something.

I made up my mind, I got up and started walking in a new path. Hoping i would find light.I walked a long distance, but could find nothing.Tears rolled down. No one by my side to wipe.At the instance, i could see some one standing dressed in white. My heart felt light. Confusion seemed to vanish.I asked "could you please,.. " He dint let me finish. I could see his face shining bright.He smiled at me.He asked me to hold his hand.

I am an angel of hope, hold my hand and keep walking !!

10 Random things about me - Tag

2009-05-28T15:46:00.007+05:30

~ My Best friends Pooh N Pynkmenlin. Love them a lot .

They call me Pearl. So we are Pooh,Pynk and Pearl :) .

~ hmmm ! I have 2 piercing.. But wanna get pierced my belly button soon :p .N tattoos, love 'em.. Espech the blue butterfly and a cute li'l red heart.. None of 'em are on my body as of now :p

~ Well, tho phisically i sit in one place my crazy mind goes around the globe. But i would love to go around the globe physically rather than virtually.Love travelling.

~ I hate math, so i dunno how far my place is from office :-o. But i can say that my place is in far far away kingdom and my office is in the other planet :p .So i actually need take a shuttle to reach office.

~ Actually i am a veggie. Quick question : is egg a non-veg ?? If yes,Hell ! I don care. Jus cant live without eatin egg ..

~ My only first,last,eternal love is lord Jesus.. Love him like crazy :)

~ I dunno abt religion. But i love, believe in almighty god, Jesus Christ.I would rather say i am a spiritual person and not a religious person. Spirituality in my life has made some amazing changes.

~ Awwwwww i love speeeeeeeeeed.. Long fast drives are my fav.. crazy about bikes..

~ OMG !! Reading for me is like breathing. I like spending most of my lazy afternoons in reading. I especially like reading when it rains outside. Die hard fan of HP. Sidney Sheldon fan. I love reading bible, fiction, female oriented,romantic(awww),love related books. Books are my bestest friends..Can't believe only 10 :p

P.S : Ms.R Thanx honey for tagging me.. Chowwy for late reply.. Love U :)

Celestial Ecstasy ..

2009-05-23T12:28:00.006+05:30

I will hold your hand

We will walk through the long bridge

Drenching in drizzle

Lost in heavens paradise

I dream of becoming one soul in you

To dissolve into the celestial ecstasy

~ By Him

P.S :Awwww! He wrote this poem jus for me..I was feelin a li'l low n trust me this poem made me feel so much better.. Thanx Hon ..

RedRose ..

2009-05-22T13:29:00.002+05:30

Kneeling down on your knees,
You whispered "I Love You".

You walked away swiftly,
leaving me far behind.

I called you,
But you did not turn back.

I Saw your tear drop ,
On a red rose lying on the stone.

I would have replied "I Love You Too",
Only If I was Alive .

TearDrop ..

2009-05-21T08:50:00.006+05:30

Lost in the dark world
I wait for you to come
To rescue me, and walk me home
But, you never came

My smile turned into a tear
Faith faded into air
Anguish of soul burning me inside
Dark shadows, by my side

A Cold and Lonesome night
My loneliness, i alone fight
Even in my dreams, you said goodbye
I wake up with tears in my eyes

Reason for my tear is you
I would have given some to you
If only i could Turn it into a Pearl
To remind you, i was once your girl .

Friendship ♥

2009-05-21T08:44:00.006+05:30

Journey of my life
Goes on the wild roads
The humps and the breaks
Give me a hard times

But i wont stop
I wont look back
I am gonna move on
With you by my side

Hand in hand
together We walk
Burden of yoke
Is now air like

You make me strong
Stop me when i go wrong
Made me laugh when was crying
Made me pose with cheesing

You taught me honesty
Its all about loyalty
You cried when i cried
When i was happy, you overjoyed

The journey might not be smooth
But i enjoy every bit of it
For we face it together
Thus Our friendship is like a flower

Almighty ..

2009-05-15T21:49:00.005+05:30

My mind is a battlefield
War between good n the evil
Arises millions of questions
On the way so many hindrance

Two sides always juggling
Forcing me to choose one thing
Devilish choices i make
which always looks fairy like

Two kingdoms fight for me
Dark force always attracts me
But in my life God's will be done
For, My lord Will always win !

Good side telling me to go ahead
Evil side dragging me back instead
Confused with the state of mind
I am afraid of staying behind

But lord anointed me with his blessings
Leading me always to bright success
The evil in my mind has come to an end
With the Power of god, devil is bent

His angels guard me
Holy spirit live in me
Blessed i am with his grace
His love for me is so abundance

My faith in him is unshakable
Trusting him everything is accomplish able
The Devil they say, is mighty
I know my holy Father is Almighty !

P.S : I love my god more than anyone in the whole universe.. The feeling of
knowing god, his glory, his presence in my life is amazing.. My god has given
me every li'l thing i asked for *Touchwood* .. Praise My Lord !

I wish **

2009-05-15T21:16:00.004+05:30

I long for the divine love

Pure it is as the lovely dove

Looking at you,

I Wish i was the moon you see

Your glance sink my heart

In your presence might melt

Beautiful is your love like tulips

I wish i was the smile on your lips

You are my only happiness

My heart enjoys the perfect bliss

So i lift my hands and look above,

I wish i was the love you love

I Love You, from my heart and soul

Only with you i would be delightful

Illusion of love, is what i foresee

I wish i was the dream you see

Miles deep is my love for you

Brightest star in the sky is only for you

Urging to be with you,

I wish i was the shadow which follows you

Liberation(2)

2009-05-14T20:07:00.005+05:30

Lustrous sun

Impeccable fun

Burning desire

Ecstasy i acquire

Redeeming the past

Aiming for highest

Liberation

2009-05-13T21:32:00.008+05:30

Let go of the devil

Inside of me

Breakthrough the

Evil Doors

Reach out For stars

Above all i rise

Turning hindrances

Into new chances

Obstacles fall down

New day new dawn

she could never be me !

2009-05-09T16:45:00.006+05:30

He introduced me to her proudly, "This is my girl Sophie !"

She said hello, with Her big eyes scorching my soul.

As i sipped coffee with them,

I saw Her face with wrinkles now, I knew, she could never be me !

I felt a pity,

for he lost a Diamond while searching for a Stone !

Death By Love !

2009-05-09T16:38:00.004+05:30

The world around me is so cruel
Its just a reflection of hell
Love buried in the grave
Poor heart, only love it craves

Darkness surrounding my happiness
Now i am used to the bitterness
Acids of love burning me all over
Turning my love into hatred forever

Beauty spilling outside the face
Filthy inside, with no grace
Slowly taught me to love
Blindfolded me to deceive

Act of winning heart, with charm
Felt false warmth, in his arm
His lies echo in my ear like a thunder
How did i lose my mind, I still Wonder

First love, First kiss i tasted
I might lose it, I feared
One in a million, i thought i was blessed
I never had it, I then realised

I lost it, before i could have it
Cursed is this life, i accept it
My soul no longer hungry for mortality
I only belong in the eternity

Love, the beauty and the beast, never pleased me
So i sip the poison of love, do not cry for me
Pain leaving my body, is a relieve
Oh ! How amazing is Death By Love !

I Miss You ...

2009-05-08T09:34:00.002+05:30

Life would have been different
If we were Together
I would have been livin my life
But You left me, and i forgot to breathe

Looking back all i get is a tear
Wish you were here very near
groaning at the wickedness of my fate
I realise Now its too late

waking up with wet eyes i miss you !
Wish i never would have met you
Deep scar in my heart is not healed
The evil side of you is revealed

I hate you, as much as i love you
I cry at night thinking of you
Losing you was part of the game
For you played it so lame

My love for you is pure, i cry no more
For you will stay in my heart forever
As the Star fall down, i wish for you
My heart silently whispers *I MISS YOU*

P.S :This is For Him

TIME ..

2009-05-04T19:56:00.003+05:30

The silence surrounded my room in the hot afternoon..Only thing i could hear was the tic tic of my stupid li'l clock.. For no reason i was angry on time and the way it runs without a break. Who made this time any way??Is my biggest question ! Hmmm i was thinkin of buyin myself a book and jus read it on a lazy Sunday afternoon. Yea its like the millionth time i am thinkin of buyin a book but not yet bought..I was so caught up in some work for the last couple of days that i dint even have time to get bored,no time to sit and do some crappy things which i do and call it productive !

Holy shit ! i shouted, scaring myself to death.. I missed myself sooo damn terribly..Oh yea i suddenly realised i am all alone in my cave like dark room with tic tic of my clock and swirling sound of fan and myself ! WoW ! i thought.. Let me delight myself with some melodious music. I played love story loudly.. Took out couple of my books and cleaned em hoping to read one.But then i thought i could do it some time later when i have *TIME*.

That very thought of time again freaked me out.. Soooo little time and soooo much to do !! Getting bored is one big thing i wanna do all the *TIME* ..Building myself this huuuuuuuuge library and stuff all my fav books in the rack.Go on a cruise trip to some remote island.Horse riding wearing a white gown, like a Runaway Bride .. Go to moon, touch him once at least n see whats so special about him that i am so damn crazy about him ! Scuba diving, Buying myself a chocolate factory. Flying like a bird, or flying a plane at least ! Again getting bored in between all these stuffs..

In fact getting bored in my life is my top priority cuz it gives me that *STAMINA* to think about all the unworthy, useless things son earth. Like building myself a big mansion in Rome.Writing a book about myself.Watching and buying all the Hollywood movies.Huh! As i was thinking about the things i wanna do in soo li'l time i was shocked again. Cuz never did i mention about getting married and having like 5 o 6 kids.

And that would consume so much of my friggin *TIME*So now where would i get *TIME* to delight myself jus like i did this afternoon??When would i buy myself a good book and give myself a treat?? Time keep tugging me.Sometimes somethings in life are unattended.I dunno if i could build myself a mansion But i would sure give myself a quality time every now and then. Pamper myself !

I have this weird obsession about myself !! *Hehehehe*
My stupid clock was running fast and furious, dunno why !! Suddenly it was a beautiful cloudy evening. N i dint do anything.. Thought i ll pen down this wonderful creepy experience of mine in my blog !

What My B'Day Says ..

2009-05-04T19:14:00.001+05:30

Your Birthday's Wisdom is Rebirth

You believe the beauty of life is that anyone can be reborn at anytime.

The world is full of fresh starts, and you take one whenever it comes your way.

You are constantly evolving and changing. And to you, that's a beautiful thing.

You aren't the person you used to be... you're so much better now!

What's Your Birthday's Wisdom?

TiTaNiC ♥

2009-04-30T23:54:00.004+05:30

I am so damn tired right now. But i couldn't resist from writing. My iTunes playing me My heart will go on... Wonderful song ! I thought lemme pen down how much the movie Titanic and the song means to me. I still remember i saw the movie for the first time when i was in 7Th std.. Roughly talking, i don exactly remember.

Its been my fav since then. Every time the song used to pop on M TV i used to watch it with full volume, harassing my neighbours lol !! Yes the song has been my all time romantic fav song. I cry every time i watch the movie.Oh yeah trust me on this one.The lyrics of the song make me very emotional.As a matter of fact each word hit my already weak heart like a bang. I usually fall for the beautiful things around me very easily.Like soft music, romantic movie or a good book attracts me more than boys do.. hehehe.. Now while i am typing this, i realise how terribly i missed my bloggie.

Coming back to movie, One classic love story which would always remain my fav.Every bit of it is full of emotions, and Love. Fell in love with Jack when i was around 13 i guess.. Huh ! He is my boy till today ..hehehe.. I mean none of the charming actor have replaced him,His innocence in the movie, his charming love made me mad about him. And talking about the song,I became a huge fan of Celine Dion ! Worshipped her like goddess for singing it so beautifully. :)

This post is for all the lovers out there.. This post is for all those who love titanic like crazy like me..For all those Who are in love !

U r here in my heart, And my heart will go on and on.....

Rain ..

2009-04-24T23:45:00.002+05:30

Beautiful one which was the real human in me
Standing in front of the mirror i search for inner me
Smile faded, shadow betrayed !
I think of starting everything new,
But end up feeling Blue !

Feelings of heart so blur
Crazy thoughts make a big swirl
Scars hurt deep down
Nothing in my life is my own !

Walking down the lane,
I silently cry , so someone could cure my pain !
The empty bench welcomes me
Sitting there, I wait for someone to hear me !

Black clouds filling the sky,
Birds so freely above fly !
Raindrops falling down
Made it easy for me to mourn!

I wonder is it the drop of rain
Or the teardrop of my pain !
I let the rain drench me like never
I promised to love myself forever !

Water flowing down the streets
Took away all my sins
Love the rain which took away all my sadness
I feel like an angel dipped in happiness !

Love Is In The Air ...

2009-04-24T22:19:00.003+05:30

I smile without a reason,

I sing without the music

I dance without a song,

You came into my life as a fresh gentle breeze

Made my life worth living, The world looks more beautiful than ever

My heart filled with exuberance with your charming love

You make me fall for you again and again !

Irresistible ...

2009-04-24T21:53:00.002+05:30

Pain
turning
into pleasure,
Lying naked
Next to your body,
I melt into nothingness with your tender touch
In a endless night taking my soul
to heavenly
pleasure !

PS: My contribution to the Loung .. Irresistible series !

Pain ..

2009-04-24T20:23:00.002+05:30

Pain in my heart is unbearable

Sense of Loss is so miserable,

Jumbled thoughts in my head

Unanswered questions in my mind

Walking through the misty passage

Heading nowhereI search for something

Dim lights, scary long nights my only companions

Tears frozen, Empty Heart

My senses numb, I am lost in my own world !

Life ...

2009-04-23T11:51:00.004+05:30

Sometimes i lose, sometimes i win

Sometimes tears, sometimes smile

Sometimes frustration, sometimes hope

Somethings in life never change,

somethings in life never happen the way i want..

But life taught me to accept things as they are and move on.

its only one life i get to live, I live it to the fullest !

P.S : My contribution to the lounge.

Lost ..

2009-04-21T01:04:00.003+05:30

I dream of walking in a white gown, the aisle, to you.For it is like reaching for the shining star in the sky.I dream of Running from a distance and fall in your arms.My heart grows bigger, for you stay in it.I talk to you in my dreams.You are a delight to my eyes.Bliss for my dreams.I close my eyes to see the reflection of you.The thought of you carried me to a perfect ecstasy.my love for you would never die.Deep down in my heart, my feelings for you would never fade.

My heart is lost.For it no more belongs to me.You the culprit stole it from me.I long for your heart.I want to keep it safe forever with me.I stand beside the road just to see you pass by.Every time you walk like a breeze stealing my heart,leaving me breathless behind.I forget to breath as you pass by.My heart stops beating.It takes a moment for me to return to the real world.For,surreal world of love is lunatic.

I let my heart love you.I let my heart lose for you.I think i should tell you my darling, I Love You .I know i am close my dream.I stand beside the same tree, on the same road you take, waiting for you to come.Misty morning more romantic than ever.The morning dew and red roses singing love.Time seemed to be standstill.I could no more wait to tell.I am getting the urge to see you never like before.

As i was lost in my deep thoughts, i saw you walking.My heart sank at the sight.You holding her by your side went without even looking at me.As you walked stroking her hair, you took my life away.My dreams shattered.I hit the rock bottom.Heartbroken,i stood there frozen.The sadness seemed to last forever.I cried for you, hard to stop my tears.The sense of loss growing like a gigantic mountain.

The quest for love in your plain eyes went in vain.My eyes speak about my love story,Never did you perceive my love for you in my eyes.My heart beating so fast standing beside you, my feelings went unnoticed by your senseless heart.Your touch take my breath away, you did not See am breathless in your love.Everyday i go to the roadside,stand beside a tree cry out loud for you.Searching for the pieces of my heart.Empty and numb i stood, searching for the path.

Like The Rain I Have Fallen For You ...

2009-04-20T02:10:00.010+05:30

I walked holding my gown up in one of my hand and my heels in the other hand.He said "You look beautiful" ! My face showed my expressions before i could even realise that I'm blushing.I threw away my heels and ran into his arms.He closed my eyes with his tender hands and asked me to walk along with him.

As we walked i could feel the cool sand caressing my feet.I could hear the thunder sound of massive waves.He opened my eyes and i stood in front of the sea shore.Me with him and the moonlit beach.I was spellbound at the sight.His presence graced the beauty of the sea.He put his hand on my waist.Never i have felt so safe.

We both stood there watching the sea immovable.Dreamy conversation went on.I could feel his warmth around my body.His manly smell driving me crazy.My madness increasing.He pulled me close to him.Held my hand and we danced to the music of the serene sea.I rest my head on his shoulder.His protection around my waist.

I knew he was the one for me.He slowly moved his soft lips on my cheeks.My heart beating so fast.I moved my face standing on the tip of my toe, pressed my lips gently on his lips.The gentle, passionate kiss was so perfect for the night.The joy in my heart made my face radiant as the moon.We walked along the sea shore, holding each other's hand.The silence fell between us.Our hearts talking to each other.

My love for him is deeper than the ocean,Higher than the sky,more beautiful than the full moon.I was floating on the clouds.Suddenly the thunderstorm brought me down to earth.I wondered did the heaven's plan my romantic night with the moon, sea and the rain all together??

As the rain drops hit the sand,I told him i am falling for you just like rain.Kiss in the rain was like tasting the love.We sat down on the wet sand,surrounded by the cool soothing air and dipped in the shower of love.No measure for my happiness.I silently wished the moon would never set, sun would never rise and the night would never end, for i want to live this way whole my life !

Dark Angel ...

2009-04-19T02:19:00.005+05:30

As the dusk falls down.

Warmth of the sun washed away by the chill breeze.
As the darkness spread around the world,

the night put the universe to sleep.
I woke up as silence fell.The door to my world flung open.
The breathtaking dark night sent a quickening chill.
Black is my colour.Darkness is my happiness.
Full moon an illusionist in my imperial.

Spilling its beauty upon me.
Spreading light on the black river.Perfect sight to behold.
My dreams coming to life.My mind set free to wander.

My thoughts flowing like a river

I fly in the sky reaching for the stars
I envy the sleep.The silence sings to me a song of the night
Waves of the miles deep sea and the sandy sea shore

left alone underneath the sky to romance

The harsh wind carrying the rustling leaves
Silent night is a beautiful gift

I command the sun to set,moon to rise,
wind to blow,silence to sing.I own the night

For, i am the queen of darkness

Ruler of the night

They call me a Dark Angel !

Life After Death ..

2009-04-16T17:44:00.006+05:30

I'm running away from myself and from the cruel world.To hide myself in the darkness.To sit and cry until my tears are frozen.The deep wounds hurt me.The pain inside my heart aches.Scars remind me of how much i loved you.I was the loser in every game you played with me.I promise to love you till i die.You saw me lying there helpless.Turned your back on me and walked away.Disappeared from my sight,bruising my heart.Crushing my love.Stamping my rose.

I called you for help.I dragged myself to reach out for you.Tried to touch you for the last time and tell you how much i love you !I was left alone in the darkness under the dark sky.The pain you caused was killing me slowly.I was lost in the surreal world with so many questions in my head.I waited for you to return and love me the way i loved you.I shut my eyes and prayed to the falling star to send you back to me.There was only the sky left filled with stars to talk with.

I know you wouldn't return.Broken heart aches lot more than the bruised knee.How funny it is,i still love you with my broken heart.A heart once broken, is broken forever ! My Shattered heart pieces lie there with me.Your Every lie echoing in my ears.Your fake love choking my breath.Drenching me in the evil blood of your sin.I could no more bear the pain in my heart.

I buried my miseries.I buried all my desires.I remembered the love song i sang for you.I remembered the red rose, which is safe in my notebook.remembered you as i slowly closed my eyes.Tears rolling down.I know this is the end of me..

I saw an Angel by my grave dressed in white.Stretched her hand, calling me.I felt light.My heart overjoyed for no reason.I rose from the miseries.Looking back i saw myself lying there peacefully.Do not mourn for my death, My Dear. I'm in eternal life.All my scars,pain healed.I no more have the broken heart.I have the heart filled with the immortal love.My heart feels the immense happiness of pure love.I'm living the life after my death.Life after death is Amazing !

The Mid-Night Rain ...

2009-04-07T00:36:00.008+05:30

I was curled up in my blanket.I was dreaming about something i don't remember.I slowly opened up my eyes.I felt i was in a different world.I could not feel the ground for some reason.I didn't know what time was it.I got out of the bed.It was a beautiful cloudy evening.I stood by the window watching the sun set down leaving me there all alone.

The cool breeze kissed me.I sipped my hot coffee.The dark clouds grew thicker.I was very happy to see such a weather.I played my favourite music.I stepped into the shower and the hot water touched my body slowly relaxing my every muscle.The lovely weather and my favourite music added more fun to my bathe.I was lost in the fragrance and was singing loudly.A loud clap of thunderstorm shake me.

I stepped out wrapped in a towel, picked up my favourite lingerie.Dried my hair.Without any reason i was happy inside.I was dancing while i dried my hair.I sprinkled my perfume.The awesome aromatic flavour drew me to some magical land.I slipped in my black gown.I left my brown hair open.I rubbed a little lip balm.I stepped into my black leather heels.

I walked down the lane.The breeze whispered something in my ear which made me blush, i smiled at myself.I wanted to know why my heart was so happy and singing so loud inside.I left behind my scent as i walked.The cold wind carried my flavour.I sat on the bench far from the crowd..Waiting to hear the sound of the thunder again. The chilly air was driving me crazy..I looked up at the dark cloudy sky..

I felt like dancing looking at such a beautiful sky with black clouds.. I saw a butterfly on the bench..I felt it was telling me something..I was overjoyed at the sight of a butterfly and the heavenly weather.I was singing out loud not bothered about the world.The drop of a rain touched my lips.I closed my eyes, held my head up high..

I spread my arms wide open like wings of a bird.I felt light inside.I was floating in the air..I was scared my heart might just explode with the extreme happiness.I knew why was i so happy. The droplets started pouring down touching my face.The mid-night rain drenched me..

I realised why was my heart singing out loud.I knew why was i here.I realised how much i missed rain.I shut my eyes gently to listen to the sound of rain.I was immersed in the unseen happiness.I was in a different world.I was held by the magical rain.It washed away my sorrows..It filled my heart with the exuberance.I wanted to grab hold of it and never let it go.

The steamy rain was still pouring down as i walked back with my soaked gown and wet hair.I love rain ,it always listens to my stories, sings to me, pours down when I'm alone, wash away my tears.I walked back with a smile on my face.I wondered whether it's a drop a tear or a drop of a rain rolling down my cheeks !

A World Different From Yours..

2009-04-05T23:37:00.005+05:30

I sit alone staring at the starry night..My mind full of jumbled thoughts..I try to arrange my thoughts.. But the confusion grows.. The thoughts flow from a romantic song i love the most to the dress I've to buy.. I get lost in my own world..I see the surreal beauty there.. I hear the melody of a romantic song..

I talk to myself.. I smile lookin at the half moon.. I get confused with my own thoughts..I wonder why do i think so much..Why do i talk to myself.. Why am i so lost in my crazy world..Why do i have so many questions in my head?? Its kind of a battle going on in my mind..The smoky thoughts keep haunting me.. I don't understand my thoughts sometimes..It makes me blue..Sometimes make me happy..

Sometimes confuse me with the real world..May be I'm a crazy girl..Or may be i am an emo..Still i like being in my own world..I think about the beautiful butterfly.. I think of a bird. I think of a cute li'l baby..I think of him.. I think of the love song.. I think of the weird stuffs.. I get lost in my own world..I keep wondering about the surprises life s gonna bring me..I really get excited about tomorrow..I think whats in the next chapter of my life..

I have always thought of my life as a book..Which teaches me so many new lessons.. The tough tests, experiences..I wait for something in my mind.. I look out for something unseen.. I search for somethin I've never lost..Try to hear somethin unheard.. I'm forced to think why am i so confused with my own life and my very own thoughts..

Why can't i figure out what exactly i want?? Why is it soo difficult for me to take a decision..Why am i lost in unknown thoughts?? I have no control over the flow of my own thoughts..Am i tryin to be a perfect girl and a lead a perfect life ? Is it the answer to a bunch of jumbled thoughts?? Or may be i am tryin too hard to get somethin.. But i really dunno what i want..

After this huge fight with myself i realised life is not about being perfect or life is not about finding the answers..Life isn't about yesterday or tomorrow..Life is all about living for the moment..Life is a lyrics, given to me to compose a beautiful music and to sing.Life is a black n white picture given to me to colour it as i wish n make it colourful.Life is a mystery given to me to solve it.. May be with the help of my never ending thoughts..

I like the way i am.. I like the way i think.. I like being in my own world..Cuz i know i'll figure out answers to all my questions, to all my thoughts when time comes.. One by one life will answer me.. I'll keep thinking for it is my daily dose..

AutoBio ..

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Fill this out IN YOUR OWN WORDS andrepost as, my autobiography.
-Prologue-
1. Who took your default pic?
-- Fren
2. Exactly what are you wearing rightnow?
-- gray t shirt wit the quote urban girl n black shorts.. :)
3. What is your current problem?
-- Love prob .. awww ! :((
4. What makes you most happy?
-- Music :))
5. What's the name of the song thatyou're listening to?
-- Girlfriend..
6. do you like MTV?
-- Hell yeah .. :))
7. Name something that annoys youabout people?
-- Arrogance
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Chapter 1:
1. Nickname
-- Vasu, butterfly,bond girl [i luv it] :))
2. eye color?
-- brown
3. hair color?
-- brownish
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Chapter 2:
FAMILY
1. Do you live with your parent(s)?
-- Nope
2. Do you get along with your parent(s)?
-- Totally :))
3. Are your parentsmarried/separated/divorced?
-- Married
4. Do you have any brothers or sisters?
-- two sisters, One bro :p
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Chapter 3:
FAVORITE
1. Ice Cream?
-- Butterscotch wit lots of nuts, chocolate, lots n lots of chocolates n nuts..
2. Season/s?
-- Winter !
3. Book:
-- If tomorrow comes. :))
4. Band:
-- No particular band..
5. Food:
-- Noodles, any thin spicy, jawar roti..
6. drink(s) (non alcoholic):
-- Coffee, lemonade ,milk+bournavita:))
8. past-time:
-- Shoppin, net, books, movies..
9. pen color:
-- blue.
10. store:
-- every store in malls
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Chapter 4:
DO YOU-
1.Write on your hand?
-- Yeahhhh... A heart .. :))
2. Call people back?
-- Yep.. N ask 'em to cal me back .. hehehe ..
4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
-- Yea, wall side usually ..
5. Have Mental Health Issues?
-- Nah .. But ma fren think i'm split personality .. Poor guy..
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Chapter 5:
Have You:
1. Broken a bone?
-- Yea, once slightly .. :(
3. Had physical therapy?
-- nope.
4. Gotten surgery?
-- nope.
5. Taken painkillers?
-- yup. toothaches.
6. Have you ever gone scubadiving/snorkeling?
-- Noooo ... :(
7. Been stung by a bee?
-- no.
8. Threw up in a doctors office ??
-- Yepp.. By my dad.. Was runnin outta hospital cuz i heard doc talkin abt injection.. Long Story !!
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Chapter 6:
Who/what was the last:
1. Movie you saw in the movie theatres?
-- Jab V met ..
2. Person to text you?
-- Pravil[who cals me a msg maniac, he s one too]
3. Thing you touched?
-- Touchpad :p
5. Thing you said?
-- U r sooo cutee ..
7. Person you hugged?
-- My roomie..Last night. :p
10. Person to call you ??
-- MoM
11. Last book you read?
-- Twilight
12. Last movie watched that you nearly cried?
-- A Walk To Remember.. I cried a lot..
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Chapter 7:
Who/what was the first:
1. first boy you kissed?
-- x
2. first person you had a crush on?
-- Vishal
3. first person to fell inlove with you?
-- x
4. first gift you received during your 7th birthday?
-- A dress.. Like a tradition ..
5. first person you look up to until now?
-- Dad+Mom
6. first date?
-- My stupid x ! :x
7. first word?
-- I guess mamma
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Chapter 8:
your kind of guy/girl:
1. Good looks/Brains ?
-- Good Looks :))
2. Loyal/rich?
-- Loyal
3. Flirt/Serious?
-- Serious..
4. Smoker?
-- Nooooooooo...
5. confident?
-- Yea..
6. virgin?
-- y not? :p
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Chapter 9:
More about me:
1. ambitions in life?
-- Make money, Travel , Live happily.. :))
2. dream place?
-- London :))
3. motto:
-- Its not abt fate, its al abt faith in lord.. :))
4. your worst enemy?
-- Some Bitch
5. your favorite expression?
-- Ayyo deva/omg .. which i often use..
6. a line you keep on saying that everyone finds hard to understand?
-- I'm crazy
7. you often cry because of:
-- Heart touching movies, Sad ending books where usually d lead lady dies, When somebody shouts, when my frens act real rude .. Huge list..
8. Hate :
-- Liars
9.Love:
--Life,travellin,books,choc,music,frens,kittens,bikes,cars,fam,anime,sid,hp,movies,shoppin,my cel,textin,late night talk on phone .. :))

It was so much fun fillin it up..

Love..

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Love is always patient and kind.

It is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or concieted.

It is never rude or selfish.

It does not take offence and is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins,

but delights in the truth.

It is always ready to excuse, to trust,

to hope,and to endure whatever comes.

- A Walk To Remember

Some of my Fav quotes..

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~ If I were to give ppl one clue as to how to achieve true happiness,it would be
Find something you would die for, and live for that..

~ Ever you miss me never you cry

For a drop of tear in your eyes is a day less in my life..

~ Too often we underestimate the power of

a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear,

an honest compliment, or the smallest act of care,

all of which have the potential to turn life round..

~ However rare true love is

True friendship is rarer..

~ Would you like to swing on a star ?

and carry moonbeans home in your jar ?

~ Never be normal for normality is the fault of mankind

~ Whatever you give to life, it gives you back

Do not hate anybody.

The hatred which comes out from you will someday come back to you

Love others, And Love will come back to you..

Hit By Love ...

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I was lost in my own world with my own crazy thoughts..I was suddenly hit by this thing called love..I don't know from where and how..Hey ! cupid did you do somethin with that arrow of yours?? May be you did..Why does that guy makes me blush crimson red..Totally spin my head right round..Driving me crazy all the time..Killing me with his killer looks..He is like this Edward Cullen from Twilight..So perfect, so elegant yet so magnetic..Everything about him so perfect..God! He is killing me..I'm smiling without any reason..He is all over my mind.Takes my breath away..Making my blood rush to my face every time..I don't know how many friggin times i will end up writing about him..I don't know how many times i'll fall in love with him..His smile melts my heart..Skipping my beat..Talking about him all the time..I'm so totally going mad..His words made my day ! Love is madness and i love being in love..Dancing around like a drunken girl..My friends are calling me nuts..I'm feeling it difficult to breath with him in my mind..My extreme happiness is drivin me nuts..I'm short of words..Oh ! dear boy plzzz stop killing me like this..

Love u more ! mmmmmmuuuhhhaaa

Angel Of Sea ..

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I live in the deep blue sea..Maiden of mystery.. Blue bubbles dance around me. My tear drop is a shimmer pearl..The green crystal pebble is my Jewell.. My brown hair glitters in the blue water..The buttery sunshine touch my soft skin..My hair dances to the wavy music of water. The gleam of my eyes lit the sea..My beauty spills in water at dark night..I know I set your heart at fire as i swim acros the sea at dead of night..I'm every sailor's dream..The sweet darkness engulf me and makes me glow in the abyss..I dance as i swim across the lavender ocean..I sing to the music of serene water..I embrace the sweetness of water..The rainbow kisses me..The moon bow down to my beauty..The stars sings to me a lullaby..The cosmos is immersed in my love..The breeze follows my scent..My soul sings the melody of love. The melody of music seduce me..My gilt fins glitter..I swim across the sea at night..I sit on the diamond rock.. I wonder what’s beyond the water..I see my reflection in the water and A proud moment passes..I capture the sea with my beauty,I stun the land with my charm..The sea is my home..The sea is my destiny.. I’m a maid of the sea..I’m a mermaid !

I Lift My Hands And Pray To Be Only Yours ..

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There's a song that inside of my soul.

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again.

I'm awake in

the infinite cold, but you sing to me over and over and over again.

So I lay my head back down,

and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours.

I know now you're my

only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.

Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.

When it feels like my dreams are

so far, sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down,

and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours.

I know now you're my

only hope.

I give you my destiny.

I'm giving you all of me.

I want your symphony.

Singing in all that I am.

At the top of my lungs,

I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down,

and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours.

I pray to be only yours.

I know now you're my

only hope.
~~ "Pray" By Mandy Moore From A Walk To Remember ..

You Dazzle Me !

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You are the melody of my song

You are the music of my life

You enchant me with your heart-melting smile

You dazzle me with your charm

You make my head spin with your magnetic voice

You madden me with your glance

You lit my face with your gleam

You make me flush with your gentle fondle

You stupefy me with your gaze

You make my cheeks turn red with your tender touch

You make me lose my mind with your laugh

You ignite love in my heart with your phenomenon persona

You make me blush with your cuddle

You bewitch me with your enigmatic deep dark eyes

You stun me with your aromatic fragrance

You kindle my heart with your mesmerizing smile

You make me skip my beat with your marvelous look

You hypnotize me with your kiddish talks

You steal my heart every time i get a glimpse of you

You make me grin with your sensuous smile

You bewilder me with your glaring eyes

You blind me with your fairy face

You captivate my heart with your god like grace

You amaze me with your unconditional love

You sink my heart with just your wink
You are the Greek god on the earth

You are my beginning and you are the end

You mean a world to me

You make me fall in love with you

again and again

You make me fall in love with you every day,

every minute, every second of my life

You, yes You ! its all about You my

Love

Happy Valentine's Day My Darling !

I Love You Forever !

My Love for You is Eternal !

Graveyard Love

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I woke up to a horrible morning ..I miss your presence..My mood is bluesy ..I shower, i scrub my body..I scent it, i want to smell good for you..always want to look nice for you..I always want to look beautiful for you..I polish my nails..I put on your favourite dress, your finest gift.I know you like me in red ..I comb my hair, I realised how much u loved playing with it..I feel your presence, i think u are smiling at me standing there..Did you just wink at me?? I see your clothes still hanging there..I see your bed still made up..I step out of the room..I walk across the street.. I remember i promised you i would never cry..My tears are frozen.. I buy roses..

I reach the place.. I press my hands against the gate, it swings open..My feet trembled.. I never wanted to see you there..I lost the sense of the passage..It is the serene place on the earth..I know my destination..You lie there so peacefully..I kneel down in the mud..I see your name engraved there.. I run my bare fingers on the stone..It connects me to you...I lie my face on the stone..I whisper i love you..I silently wish you were near me..

My purpose is just a remembrance..This is my graveyard love..I don't mourn..I know you are sleeping forever..Here, i got you flowers..I put it on the grave..A silent tear roll down my face..Time is tugging me..Why doesn't time stop here..I stand up , i look at the stone again..I turn my back, walk away with pain..I know you are ever gone, i love you forever..Promise me we will meet again..

..

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To me, the greatest pleasure writing is not what it's about,
But the music the words make ..
- Truman capote

Writing is a struggle against silence .
-Carlos Fuentes

If you would not have to be forgotten as soon as you are dead
either write something worth reading or do things worth writing
-Benjamin Franklin

God writes a lot of comedy the trouble is he is stuck with
many bad actors who don't know how to play funny .
-Garrison Keillor